So... its been 5 days since i've turned since 24 and boy do i not feel any different. LOL
I'm starting to realise that turning a year older doesn't really mean much nowadays. Well maybe it does when we were younger and anticipating on getting to the legal age. The legal age to get a driving license, the legal age to sign your own documents etcetc. But once you get pass that age, well lets just say turning another year old doesnt really mean that much. Okay maybe when i get closer to the big 3-0 then there will be a big personal review on whether i've done anything significant in my youth =P

ouh and to commemorate my birhtday this year, I had my hair cut short. ahahaahhahahaha
I know I know what's new. Its not like I never had short hair before.
Well since i anticipated that my Birthday this year will have no significant memory and i'd be at home doing nothing might as well make my own memory. lol.  There goes my attempt to grow out my hair =P
I think the only way I would ever have long hair is if I either have a hair weave or extensions put in.  I so fail at growing out my hair.  On the plus side of things I'm always told i look better with short hair hehe

Anyways, life has been quite monotonous these days. Weekly hospital appointments has become very routine that I no longer feel angry at long waiting times. Don't get me wrong, I still hate the long waiting times but I'm so used to it that I no longer can be bothered to get angry. I usually either read, let my mind wander, watch the TV screen showing silent moving pictures or listen to other patient's conversations or complaints on how long the waiting time is lol.  After killing whatever time I have at the hospital, I'd drop by the kopitiam to buy food to eat at home and then i'll head straight back home.  So basically every week if i'm not at home i'm either at the hospital.  I don't see anything else except for the walls and ceiling of my home and the expressways that the Cab takes to the hospital.  My social life is dead. I think I'm either already forgotton or people are just too scared to ask me out coz they are afraid i'd faint infront of them or something like i have some disease. Ok fine everyone is busy. hmpf. bah hum bug. lol i'm feeling crappy excuse me for the negative thoughts.  Being positive all the time can get tiring sometimes.

On the bright side of things i'm meeting some friends later in the evening. Miss them alotalot. 
Thank you for not leaving me out. I am so looking forward to it!

I miss my friends and I miss working.
Yes i miss working.
I am utterly bored.
I need to get a job but I can't right now since i'm still recovering, although i'm getting stronger each day (no more wheelchair at the hospital!) I have yet to get my full strength back. le sigh. Unless someone gives me a job that i can either do from home or I can work a couple of hours, nothing too strenuous of course, that would be awesome wouldn't it?
Speaking of which ever since my surgery, being warded, weekly hospital visits, warfarin supply, antibiotics medical supplies, cab fares to and from the hospital, my funds are running low. I don't know how long my savings can last me since i have no income. darn it.
I so need to get better quickly.  Bills to pay, lifetime medicine to constantly stock up on. haiz

I've been keeping tabs on the current economic crisis and with people being retrenched and such, I'm wondering that when i get better and well enough to get back to the workforce, can I even find a job then?  That is one other thing that I keep thinking about.  Which i know i really shouldn't be since I need to concentrate on getting better. heh.  I am just trying to be a realist can lol

Well for now i'm making use of my time by... watching random TV shows on discover channel, the asian food channel, okto and the list goes on LOL oh and I've been learning japanese on my own.  Ah yes learning Japanese, I decided to skip applying for japanese classes that starts next month since i am low on funds and try out learning on my own since I already kinda have a small stack of japanese language books already.  I swear learning on your own needs ALOT of self motivation.  Well it also helps that I watch a lot of Japanese shows and have been picking up the language here and there.  Trying to read and write is another whole different thing altogether. ish

omg i think i'm starting to ramble hehe
its almost 2.30am already, i think i should go to bed already
till then darlings
ta-ra!