*caution long entry ahead, you have been warned (^-^)

Today is a very slow day, not much work in the office and thus I am borreddd. I’ve finished my draft of the mitigation plea for an upcoming hearing next week and am currently waiting for the notification of my EFS document to be approved and any other work that any of the lawyers have for me.

Can’t wait for the day to end! Meeting up with 2nd sis later and we are headed to *Scape to watch live band performances for WeekendTRIP Noise Edition. Been awhile since I watched a live performance andd Quasimodo is in the line up. Remember the band I mentioned during my New Year entry? (^-^)

In my attempt to kill time I’ve been reading my past entries on LJ. Jogged quite a number of memories I’ve forgotten. This is one of the aspects of blogging that I like. It allows you to take a step back and see the person you were in the past and how far you have grown.

Oh! Btw Naz I found this entry in April 2007 mentioning our plans to go backpacking across Europe in 2010 in the comments section. Who would have thought that we would have had our winter trip 8 months down the road? But I still want to do the backpacking trip! There are loads more cities that I have yet to visit, like Venice and Paris! And you still want to experience a snowy day right? haha

I also came across the entry where Gordon from AW used to be the voice at the back of my head saying, “How your life is currently is exactly the way you want it to be.” And to this day I still agree.

I had qualms going back into legal work, afraid that I’ll mess things up, afraid that the 1 ½ years I spent pursuing my interest in Events management will go to waste. But alas the economic crises does not allow one who is also from a low income single parent family to be choosy and be idealistic. So I conceded, with Hazie’s help clinched an interview with a law firm and to sum it up the rest as they say is History. Before I started work I was freaking nervous. “ What if I screw up?” “arghhh I haven’t done law in ages what if I don’t remember anything” “ What if I’m making the biggest mistake in my life?” “What if I end up like those people who turn up for a few days of work and end up quitting??” I was full of what if questions and that was not making me any less nervous.

On the Saturday before I started work, met up with the clique in Bugis. One other reasons for the trip there besides grabbing dinner is for me to get some much needed ‘office’ clothes. Whilst wondering around aimlessly around the mall with the guys I saw a quote by Lance Armstrong: -

The quote kinda left an impression on me. I don’t know why but I kept telling myself whatever happens, pain is temporary and if I quit the pain will last forever. No matter how tough things get I should keep moving forward. Well that is what I’ve been doing. It has been two weeks and what do you know I am actually currently enjoying my job.I don’t feel as tired after work as I used to during my previous job. When I want to de-stress I look forward to either going home and spend time with my siblings who never fails to make me laugh and forget my ‘stress’ or meet up with friends for an impromptu cup of Joe or dinner. Even with my current lack of finances since I’m meccha broke for the month till my pay comes in, I am happy. I have a job, I have an awesome family and I have awesome friends. What else does a girl need? I am a simple girl with simple needs (^-')v

Darling Aida contacted me this morning. She is meccha stress. Her wedding is in less than 6 months and she is not sure of what is entirely going on in terms of the wedding details. All she sees is loads of moolahs flying away from her. How can one not know the going ons of her own wedding? Tsktsk LOL.

So tomorrow I volunteered to come over to her abode and help get things sorted. What are best buds for kan. Speaking of which I still have no idea what I’m suppose to wear on her wedding day since me together with the ‘mak andam’ is supposed to follow the bride and groom to and from their respective homes.

Despite being malay, I am a novice when it comes to malay weddings. Truth be told I never understood the romance in void deck weddings heh and please don’t say because its cheap. I think that it is a load of BS. The quotes that I’ve seen and heard in regards to malay void deck weddings, I think if the bride and groom’s family combine forces a.k.a moolahs they can do it wherever they want.

The usual reason that I get for not doing so? The proud parents of the respective bride and groom want to host their own celebration under the void deck. …klah what ever rocks their boats lol. And do you really need at least more than 3 changes of outfits?? Please lah siapa nak tengokkkk (who wants to seeee). And isn’t it blardy hot at the void deck despite even attempting to install temporary fans? Imagine wearing your best ‘baju kurung’ and whatnots and sweat running down your back and feeling that you’re almost melting like an ice-cream under the hot sun.

If it were ever up to me, this is if I ever in the very far far future find someone who is able to convince me to tie the knot with; I’d have a nice intimate affair somewhere nice with CLOSE friends and family. No need to invite all the countless relatives you’ve never known existed or see once in a very blue moon or acquaintances who only find you when they need something.

Oh and there’s this quote by Jim Morrison that I stumbled upon: -



I think I have to agree with the above and I am no longer afraid of pain. No longer afraid of feeling, no longer afraid of things that have yet to happen. Nervous perhaps, but not so much of being afraid. I’ve experienced both physical and emotional pain and hey I’m still here alive and kicking, and with everything that I’ve been through I’m perfectly happy and contented with my life. Things happen for a reason right? Tho I occasionally still get the pangs of wanting to do more things like further my studies, travel around the world, meet a new guy, but I realise that I am in no hurry. When the opportunity comes it will come. Knowledge will still be there when I have the means and the opportunity to pursue it, countries and cities will be just where they are when I have the means to fly abroad, the right guy will come along when I least expect it.

C’est la vie