Its the wee hours of Sunday morning and I have yet to sleep a wink.
What have I been doing besides needing to sleep badly? I've been looking up on camera lenses anddd I'm currently lusting over this:




Its the Nikkor AF-S DX VR18-200mm f/3.5-5.6G IF-ED DSLR Lens ♥♥♥

This is so gonna burn a whole in my pocket if I ever want to get this baby. Maybe I'll start saving up after my Japan trip or maybe boss will be generous next year and we'll get a bonus! bonus = moolah to buy new lens!  :)

I wouldn't mind this as a birthday present either LOL. Its ok if I just get this one thing from let say a hundred people pooling funds together. Each person can contribute hmm according to my calculations minimum abt S$10 each? or i wouldn't mind not getting 5 years worth of presents for this one thing ROFL.
Yes keep dreaming azi :P

Sigh sometimes i think i'm a walking a contradiction. I don't listen to my own advice.
I blame my previous entry on PMS.
Remind me never to blog when i'm having one of those days LOL!
I was re-reading my past entries and omg how i cringe at some of them. No more talk about this crazy thing called love well in my case the lack thereof.  I'll only do so when i actually do fall in love, till then somebody please slap me if i ever do it again. I shall gather more experience before expressing my views on it any further than I already have. Mr Cupid hit me with your best shot LOL :P

Anyhoo thank you mx (muted_orison ) and lia (mklia )for your comments. *hugs*
I will keep your advices in mind and for future reference :)

Yay its the weekend! It has been a hectic week, at least for me. Don't you just love it when dozens of deadlines seem to fall all around the same time? wheee...  Well time to rest, catch up on sleep and do nothing. But then again i brought work home. Stuff to draft for an upcoming trial and I have yet to get started on my Japanese homework ehehehehe

Righto I have more to blog about but I'm tired and need sleep
Apologies for this pointless entry, I had actually typed out a long one but LJ & the WWW has been bitchy and erased my unsaved entry *bluek*

I've uploaded some photos I took at darling aida's wedding on facebook here
Those are only the solemnnization ceremony. I have yet to upload the wedding reception (majlis persandingan - is that how it's spelled?lol) photos.
Not all of the photos I took of the two days will be uploaded, only a selected few coz 1 - with the sucky internet connection these past few days I'm lucky to even upload some of them after several tries and 2 - I've too many photos and uploading them all will bore you with repetitions hurhur. Will upload the 2nd day photos soon.

Till then me darlings.
おやすみなさい  :)

I don't think I know anything about love. I may somewhat have become a pessimist.
Everytime i feel it, its' gone, it disappears, and all that i have left is the void of what it would have been.
So now maybe I'm afraid to love, afraid that the little flutter in my heart is a potential heartbreak.
I know that nothing in life is certain, but I'm afraid.
Afraid to make the first move. Afraid to take a chance to what may or may not be.
Afraid that what ever baggage that I bring along with me will be too heavy for the other person and i'll just end up being alone
and if that is so wouldn't being alone in the first place be better then ever getting hurt or hurting somebody?

Sometimes I think i'm just in love with the idea of being in love. Sometimes I wonder how wonderful it would be to be in love. But I've always been unlucky in finding love. I'm turning 25 and have yet to fall in love, to experience what that really feels like. But I'm my own worst enemy. When there is any hint of possibilites i push it away, i deny and pretend that i have no feelings whatsoever. Then I'll go home and mull over it, wallow in regret and then I think of all the things why someone could never really love me and the things that I can't offer so I let everything slide, smile and pretend that everything is as it should be.

Sometimes I wish there was someone out there who can show me how wrong I am, someone who wouldn't care that i'm not perfect and who would accept my imperfections, someone who is not afraid to come up to me just to say "hello" instead of thinking how tall and initmidating i look.  Maybe i'm asking for too much. Working on divorce cases at work on a weekly basis sure does not help things aye? haha. Sometimes I do want to believe that there is really someone out there for everyone but is there really one out there for me?

But I do have friends who give me hope. I look at Tania & DS, their relationship, how they give and take, how they have grown stronger as a couple through their ups and downs. Then there's Aida & Wan. all the obstacles they went through in their relationship, proving all those who didn't believe in their relationship wrong, and now married, spending their life together in 'holy matrimony'.

So maybe i shall be a little bit more optimistic, and maybe I shouldn't dwell on such stupidity like love. If its meant to be its meant to be right? I believe in fate and that things happen for a reason and on its own time, i guess I should have a little more faith. Haiz all this talk about love, i swear I think i'm getting old. Holding babies doesn't help either since I can't have one of my own. Now that is another topic altogether LOL!

Moving along, the weekend has been exhausting. I've never been involved in two full days of malay wedding activities. It was definintely an eye opener. Ok i teared up abit during the wedding which i never did expect to. Its kinda bittersweet to see your best friend getting married. I'm so happy for the newlyweds, darling Aida and Wan. I wish both of them the all the love & happiness in the world and the v.best in their future endeavors as a couple and as seperate individuals.

Oh one more thing i learn from this wedding, I will never have mine (If i do ever get married in the far farr future) at the void deck. The heat and humidity! Which brings me to a whole big argument about the sense of having a void deck wedding but then that is a whole different topic altogether which i'm sure will elongate this entry and bore you further ahahaha.

Anyhoo back to the wedding, I have yet to upload all the photos i took during the 2 days but here's a preview :)

( ||: wedding preview :|| )

Its mid week already! Can you believe it? Time flies by so fast these days.

Work has been so far so good.  I'm learning a lot and doing work for various cases under different areas of law. I hate to say this or maybe i'm saying this too early but I am somehow or rather enjoying what I do.  I'll let you know again if I feel the same way after a month LOL

I had two different hospital appointments yesterday and had 4 hours to kill in between. Totally spacedout that naz might have classes on that day, but thank god for facebook! She texted me and since both of us had time to kill, me between appointments and she between classes, I went over to NUS Business School to look for her and grab some lunch.  Well I found myself at Biz 2 and had to climb the flight of stairs which was facing the bus stop and daym that almost killed me.  Goes to show how unfit I am.  I reckon you can get two days worth of exercise just climbing stairs in the school, to think I actually complained on having to climb the staircase at ITE East (Bishan) campus and the occasional time when one is late for classes in TP and there is no point waiting for the lift haha

American Idol performance today!
Country week, not exactly my favourite theme on idol but I think most of the contestants did okay.
And I have to say this, Anoop is back baby!  One of my favourite performances this week.  And well the most amusing performance was Adam's. I'm sure most people went (o-O)" during his performance LOL!

My picks for this week:
Top 3 - Anoop, Matt, Allison
Bottom 3 - Micheal, Kris, Alexis/Adam ( i couldn't decide LOL)

well alritey then i should sign off now, my sis is already grumbling that she wants to use her laptop LOL
ah well i need to go to sleep anyways (^-^)v
till my next update, oyasumi!

Ran a few personal errands today and i decided to walk to Tampines Central from home since the weather was nice and windy plus i wanted to save on transport. To and from the bus interchange costs about $1.50. The horror! I can buy a cup of bubble tea for that amount lolz I enjoyed my walk and i got my dose of exercise but now i have a blister on one of my toes. Reason why i don't like to wear slippers XP I have now learnt my lesson. I shall now only wear slippers if i'm only walking a minimal distance hehe

I'm still currently unemployed. This is sucky. I need a jobbbbbb. Any lobangs? lol
I need to be more pro-active at this job search and try a different strategy.

Friday evening and i'm already borreddd.
Blog hopped and found this. Well its something to do and my new LJ friends can get to know me a lil' better ;)

( .truth.wishes.fibs. )

I swear my family house is falling apart. We've been living in the same place for almost 21 years now and alot of things are beginning to break down.
This is the umpteenth time the kitchen lights has given up on working, the ceiling fan in the living room has been changed 3 times and its making wierd noises now and then, my bedroom ceiling fan has gone bust so i have to buy a standing fan and put in my already crowded room. The other kitchen light that lights up the other corner of the kitchen has also gone bust. If we attempt to turn it on the whole house blacks out and now the television sometimes goes on strike and doesn't turn on.

I think for an average large Singaporean HDB household family we have been living in the same house the longest. I realised that most of our surrounding neighbours, including the flat directly opposite our block has changed. I think if our HDB flats were not build to last i think my home will have loads more problems. Aside from that there are countless changes to the neighbourhood. I still don't like the condominium that they are building diagonally adjacent to my flat. Such an eyesore =P I very much prefer the open field that was there. Then there's the construction works being done to 'upgrade' the neighbourhood. They tore apart the badminton court, trees and open space to build a vegetable/flower garden and a roofed venue thingymagic whatever they call it i forgot lol. wtf. Now who do you reckon is going to take care of this garden? And the purpose of this small garden and enclosed space is for what actually? *rolls eyes*

On a much happier note, the boots i ordered online is here! yay! I know I know i should stop spending, which i've already done. Honest! The boots was ordered last week and it was on discount =P Its not like i can get my shoe size here in sg. Now i have to think of outfits i can wear it with. wheee

( boots! )


My mum was rolling her eyes when she saw my new boots. Another item in my shoes collection she said lol. Which is kinda true. I don't wear 80% of the shoes i own. Its like retail-therapy. I like buying shoes but i usually wear my sandals and sneakers as they are much more comfortable for me (^-^)v

Whenever i see girls wearing high heel shoes, especiallly the stilettos type, i'd just look at them in awe. I can never wear such shoes, firstly because i believe it was originally invented for torture and secondly i can never balance myself in those shoes. Anyways i'm already tall as it is, no need for added height aye? or i'll scare all the boys away hahahaha Anyways, gorgeously made shoes are always nice to look at and it also can complete an outfit. Which is why my outfits are usually casual since most of the time i wear casual shoes/sandals ahahahahahahaha I like being comfortable cannot meh =P Sometimes when i find myself having to wear heels, i'd tell myself 'no pain, no gain' but most of the time life is too short to torture yourself, so as long as i keep to my own style and be as comfortable as i want to be then carpe diem! lol

oh well, i have more things to ramble on but i need to get ready to meet my sis
till then!

I don't know why i still read the occasional romance novel when every time I finish reading them I toss the book aside and roll my eyes. As much as i love the occasional romance angle in the works of fiction, when it gets too mushy usually towards the end I just can't help but be cynical. Although i love the idea of romance and happily ever after, I don't believe in them. What is romance really or love for that matter? Does 'love at first sight', 'soulmates' or 'happily ever after' even exist? I don't believe there is such a thing as happily ever afters. Its just an illusion and a facade to the dim reality that is life. I have seen too many of my friends and friends of friends getting hurt, cry over heartbreaks, disappointments and paranoia.

If falling in love sets yourself up for getting hurt, I don't think I want any of it. I get hurt enough even without being caught in the illusions of love. Life has made me strong in so many ways but I don't think i'm strong enough to endure heart break even if that was even a possibility. Heart infection was no sweat, i survived surgery, being infected twice and all that jazz, but emotional heartbreak? I hate to admit it but it sounds even scarier than heart surgery. Maybe this is why love will never find me and why i've never been in a relationship.

Then there's the rare occasions when i see old couples walking hand in hand together, being affectionate, the eye contact they give each other. That somehow makes me smile and gives me a glimmer of hope that true love do exist. Maybe one day if i meet someone who can do the impossible and keep me interested, overlook my imperfections and change my mind, then maybe i'll find out if such a thing exists.

Well enough of my cynicism. Oh and before i move on to happier things, I just want to rant about something.

( -rant- )

Had a job interview today. My first after sending out countless resumes. I have no idea of the outcome since the recuritment agency still has to pass my resume to the actual employer and they will only notify me if i'm shortlisted. As much as I want the job I have to be realistic. There might be more qualified people for the job and oh did i mention I told them why i resigned from my previous job? That might have killed my chances then. Oh well. At least i was being honest.

I could be giving my comments on Singapore Budget 2009 but I'm too lazy for now and my sister wants to use her laptop which i'm currently using lol so before I log off, I was reading my Friends Page and saw lady_northstar's pic spam of Arashi. Just because I don't believe in love does not mean I am any less of a girl who appreciates looking at good looking male specimens lol. So many nice images of the boys and i came upon this photo of Ohno:



I don't think I have a hand fetish, but, I like looking at ohno's hands. They are nice hands too look at. Nice lean tapered fingers. Maybe its only natural for an artist to have such nice hands, working on his art pieces XP I don't think anyone else in Arashi has similar nice looking hands. Well Matsujun's may come close but Ohno will still win hands down. *grinz*

I leave you guys now with my current favourite Arashi's recent peformance of their song Truth. Have a good long weekend!




p.s - Happy Chinese New Year & Gong Xi Fa Cai to all my chinese friends (^-^)v

I am itching to travel BUT i need to get a job first
bluek
my bank balance is almost at the minus range zomg

I hate the waiting period of expecting HR people to call you for an interview after you submit your resume, especially when the job market ain't doing so good.
My last resort is just to get a part time job at a cafe or go back to the legal line. This is so not the time to be choosy aye hmmmmz

I have not slept a wink since last night. 
Tossed and turned, tried all different positions, breathing techniques, listening to my ipod but NOTHING worked
bleah
so i ended up doing some japanese revision, practiced on my japanese writing, listened to Glenn & The Flying Dutchman on Class 95's Morning Express, made french toast for breakfast ANDD i'm still not sleepy.

somebody shoot me but right now i so wish i was at work
but i need a job to that in the first place
heh
Maybe subconsciously i'm worried about something, which is why i'm unable to sleep. haiz now to put a finger on what exactly is bothering me.

ah well i should enjoy what ever free time i have now right?
i keep telling myself its like the calm before the storm lol

hmmm since I don't think I'll be going to sleep anytime soon I should go out and run some errands.

1. Finally get my passport photo done so I can finally renew my almost expiring passport,
2. go to the optometrist and get a new pair of glasses done to replace the ones that i lost eons ago so that I can finally register for BTT and pass the eye test lol,
3. go to the library to return the library books that i've finished reading and borrow new ones and maybe kill some time by doing more japanese revision at the library

mmm i got more to add but that will be going into too much detail lol

ok i shall laze around for a bit more before doing all that heee
somehow now i feel like doing this



What sleep deprivation can do to a person.
wahahahhahahhahahaha

Happy New Year me darlings!
I know i haven't been updating much, haven't had the mood to blog lately. When i need to clear my mind what i do nowadays is write and i don't need the internet connection to dothat! lol.

To make up for it and since its the new year and all, I made a new layout for my LJ! yay! Well base codes are of course courtesy of minty_peach 

So, unlike previous years i haven't done any reflections or resolutions whatsoever for the new year. Maybe just a passing thought here and there. 2008 has been a really trying year. Funnily enough it went more or less accordingly to what was predicted for my chinese horosope. hmmmm.
I had an awesome beginning half of the year but not so much towards the later half of the year with my infection, surgery and all.

Here are my top 10 high and low-lights of the year 2008 in no particular order:

( my 2008 in summary )

New Year's Eve was a blast compared to the previous 2 years where i've actually stayed at home doing nothing. Spent it with my sisters at the Esplanade. I love it when there are Live band performances at the outdoor theater. Four bands performed that night, Quasimodo, You and Whose Army?, Tiramisu and Mathilda & the Motherfunkys.
YAWA? was a yawn, Tiramisu was hilarious & fun but i enjoyed Quasimodo's performance the most. They really have catchy tunes and despite having a foot injury, the lead singer knows how to build rapport with the audience. The only problem i had with the band was that the back up vocals were somewhat out of tune heh
Mathilda & the Motherfunkys performed after the fireworks were over.  As much as I wanted to hear her perform, on her 2nd song some drunk angmohs decided to start their own dancing party in the middle of the audience and well since it became somesort of a green light the surrounding foreign workers who were mainly 'banglas' decided to join in and well all hell broke loose.  So we decided to do a quick escape lol.

( NYE08! )

Anyways i'm not really sure what i am looking forward to the new year, however the top priority on my list right now is to get a job. lol.
I do hope i can get one soon, i'm dying of boredom at home and i have bills to pay bluek. :P
Next thing would be to find what i'm looking for, maybe understand where i'm heading in life, make plans and work towards new goals. Okay its all very vague but i know i'll get to where i need to go and maybe finally be lucky in love lol i wish.

oh and i want to travel! Hopefully if i can save up enough by year's end maybe i'll take a trip to somewhere. I'm not sure where yet but we'll see *wink*

Also 2009 would be bittersweet because of my close friends who will be going away to further their studies abroad.
I am so going to miss them.  Let's meet up before you fly off okay :)

So... its been 5 days since i've turned since 24 and boy do i not feel any different. LOL
I'm starting to realise that turning a year older doesn't really mean much nowadays. Well maybe it does when we were younger and anticipating on getting to the legal age. The legal age to get a driving license, the legal age to sign your own documents etcetc. But once you get pass that age, well lets just say turning another year old doesnt really mean that much. Okay maybe when i get closer to the big 3-0 then there will be a big personal review on whether i've done anything significant in my youth =P

ouh and to commemorate my birhtday this year, I had my hair cut short. ahahaahhahahaha
I know I know what's new. Its not like I never had short hair before.
Well since i anticipated that my Birthday this year will have no significant memory and i'd be at home doing nothing might as well make my own memory. lol.  There goes my attempt to grow out my hair =P
I think the only way I would ever have long hair is if I either have a hair weave or extensions put in.  I so fail at growing out my hair.  On the plus side of things I'm always told i look better with short hair hehe

Anyways, life has been quite monotonous these days. Weekly hospital appointments has become very routine that I no longer feel angry at long waiting times. Don't get me wrong, I still hate the long waiting times but I'm so used to it that I no longer can be bothered to get angry. I usually either read, let my mind wander, watch the TV screen showing silent moving pictures or listen to other patient's conversations or complaints on how long the waiting time is lol.  After killing whatever time I have at the hospital, I'd drop by the kopitiam to buy food to eat at home and then i'll head straight back home.  So basically every week if i'm not at home i'm either at the hospital.  I don't see anything else except for the walls and ceiling of my home and the expressways that the Cab takes to the hospital.  My social life is dead. I think I'm either already forgotton or people are just too scared to ask me out coz they are afraid i'd faint infront of them or something like i have some disease. Ok fine everyone is busy. hmpf. bah hum bug. lol i'm feeling crappy excuse me for the negative thoughts.  Being positive all the time can get tiring sometimes.

On the bright side of things i'm meeting some friends later in the evening. Miss them alotalot. 
Thank you for not leaving me out. I am so looking forward to it!

I miss my friends and I miss working.
Yes i miss working.
I am utterly bored.
I need to get a job but I can't right now since i'm still recovering, although i'm getting stronger each day (no more wheelchair at the hospital!) I have yet to get my full strength back. le sigh. Unless someone gives me a job that i can either do from home or I can work a couple of hours, nothing too strenuous of course, that would be awesome wouldn't it?
Speaking of which ever since my surgery, being warded, weekly hospital visits, warfarin supply, antibiotics medical supplies, cab fares to and from the hospital, my funds are running low. I don't know how long my savings can last me since i have no income. darn it.
I so need to get better quickly.  Bills to pay, lifetime medicine to constantly stock up on. haiz

I've been keeping tabs on the current economic crisis and with people being retrenched and such, I'm wondering that when i get better and well enough to get back to the workforce, can I even find a job then?  That is one other thing that I keep thinking about.  Which i know i really shouldn't be since I need to concentrate on getting better. heh.  I am just trying to be a realist can lol

Well for now i'm making use of my time by... watching random TV shows on discover channel, the asian food channel, okto and the list goes on LOL oh and I've been learning japanese on my own.  Ah yes learning Japanese, I decided to skip applying for japanese classes that starts next month since i am low on funds and try out learning on my own since I already kinda have a small stack of japanese language books already.  I swear learning on your own needs ALOT of self motivation.  Well it also helps that I watch a lot of Japanese shows and have been picking up the language here and there.  Trying to read and write is another whole different thing altogether. ish

omg i think i'm starting to ramble hehe
its almost 2.30am already, i think i should go to bed already
till then darlings
ta-ra!

Hellohello! Good Friday evening =)
25 mins to knock off! I'm currently uploading files to an online server for the boss who is currently in Vi.et.nam and the server is taking forever to finish uploading. yousendit failed on me with its snail-like pace so i had to switch to media.fire which at least is showing progress. So in order to kill time, i have been youtubing.


mad TV, what can i say, they are mad. lol.




One of the most awesome bands around. Now if only they were to have a concert in sg anytime in the near future. =P

So it was a shocker
Michael Johns being eliminated from American Idol
wtf, he's one of the stronger singers in the competition
but oh well somebody has to go right?

So my weekend has started off on a bad note. Not because of the above but because of other things. I think its time I learn to stop having expectations. I find joy in the littlest things but nowadays even these little things are starting to desert me. It makes me sad but what can I do but just smile because life still goes on no matter how dissapointed i feel. The only sure thing I know that will be there at the end of the day is my home and my family.

Its starting to be a pain when my fridays constantly end up being a bad start to my weekend. Thank god for my japanese videos and tubs of ice cream. The only things that keeps me sane nowadays no matter how much my friends ridicule me about it. Whatever makes me happy right. You have your own happy stuff and i have mine.

Somebody recently commented why in the world i had my hair cut short. To the person its even more reason why i won't be attached anytime soon. *cue for me to roll my eyes*
I shall save you from what was being said next. But seriously to hell with whatever that person said. I'm happy with having short hair, it does not make me less a girl than i already am. I'm perfectly happy with my life now, with being single, with not having to worry for another extra human being in my life and I'm in no rush nor have the need to find a partner or whateverchumaycallit at the current moment just because you simply can't live without clinging to somebody else like a morning glory.

In case you're wondering what my hair looks like now..
( haircut here! )

With that said, I want to go watch Survivor on TV now. good night everyone. Have a good weekend.
I leave you now with my faviourite performance from Michael Johns.

This is very very veryyy bad.
I thought i could hold on to my impulses BUT
I am such a failure. I tried to hold out telling myself that i have to stop spending and dipping into my june trip air plane ticket funds since
i have not received last month's pay yetttttttt
There's so much hype about the recently released JE calenders,
and as much as i love NEWS however Arashi's 08-09 Calendar is too tempting! It doesn't help that the calendar is in A5 size (which means you can bring it anywhere with you) and it comes with a cookbook!


credit to memory_angel for the scans

okie thing is the calendar seems to be sold out every where. Cdjapan, Amazon Japan etc but i finally found a site that has stock and provides free shipping!!! Omg this must be sign right?
ok so i ordered and hopefully *fingers crossed* everything goes smoothly and the calendar will be in my hands soon!
badbadbadddddddazi.
lol. =P

I love the weather nowadays. I don't mind the rain as long as its cold. It reminds me of London.
I miss London.


photo credit: azi

speaking of which i know i owe my Winter Trip pics. =P
My bad ikonwiknow.  I'll post em' up as soon as i've finished editing and uploading em' all. 2GB worth of photos is no jokeee
ehehhehehe

Anyhooo i've received my very first snackster package from my US partner Chelsea!
Thanks Chelsea!
I hope you like yours too!

ok for the uneducated, snacksters  is this community on LJ that periodically arranges members to swap snack packages from different countries. How awesome is that?! Being able to try different snacks from different countries without needing to travel. wootwoot!

A slow start to a Monday morning, bored in the office and my stomach is rumbling with hunger.
darn that CNY music has just started. ish.
I swear this totally feels like the calm before a storm.  Since right now projects are all still under talks, and as a PA obviously i'm not involved in those meetings, since i'm not the least bit 'qualified' to join in the discussions (apparently some man.age.gers have this thing about PAs having their own opinions/suggestion/brains.bleah.), so here I sit in my corner waiting for the boss to give me something to do as he types non stop on his laptop doing god knows which project.  I'm starting to hate having nothing to do.  I want to go back to school.  My sister suggests that I only do so when she comes back from Swiss next year.  Can i wait that long? I wonder.

I forsee the storm coming most probably when the CNY period is over.  Am.Am.Pee.Dee.Eh, Are.Aye.Tee.See, My.Guh.ulf.Cuh.lubb, Pee.Ass.Dae... did i leave anything out? That's all i know that's currently in the works right now.

I miss being in a team.
I was browsing thru some of the law juniors blogs and happen to come across their latest post on what was it? A.rt.s Ni.gh.t? sigh.
I am jealous.  I wish i was back in school, back in law. inc. doing stuff i love and not sitting behind a desk waiting. Waiting for my turn to continue my studies so that i can pursue my own dreams.

I get jealous when is see a team working in perfect harmony.  I get jealous when i see a group of friends who are like family.  And funny thing is these groups are either music groups or from some drama.  I get jealous of fictional characters. go figure. wtf a.zi.

Reason why i love events management, is the fact of being able to work with a team of dedicated people.  No matter how hard/tough organising is to please the client/target audience, no matter how much headache  you can get from last minute demands/logistical arrangements/red tapes, no matter how frustrating it is when there are individuals who only think of themselves and not for the team, i love every bit of the experience.  Because for every one event that is held, you learn so many things about yourself and about other things that textbooks can never teach.

You know what i want to experience the most?  Organising concerts/performances.  Working close to another thing i love which is music, well theater production included.  Consider that one of my dreams. 
Can you imagine, to be able to work at the esplanade or some international music/entertainment company?? fuuyohhh.  No matter how much hard work needs to be dedicated to each production, i am so willing to even start from the bottom. 

Now how did my talk about how boring my monday is suddenly became about me talking about my dreams? lol.

oh yes,
i was browsing through friendster and looking at all the updated profiles of my friends with their engagement / wedding / baby photos. lol.
As i was browsing through them i realise that i am so not ready to be a that stage of where their lives are right now no matter how younger/older they are or even the same age as me.  At my age, funnily enough i gotta admit i don't think i ready yet to be in a relationship.  Relationships need work and i don' t think i currently have the capacity to give my 100% in a relationship if not i wont be fair the other person right?  So maybe because i am not ready is the sole reason why i am still single at my age and i don't care what other people/relativesiseeonceinabluemoon says.  lol.

otay i shall end my post here for now.
LUNCH TIME! yay!
i think i shall go to car.re.four. at PS to get those take away sushi.
ciao!

I've never been in Chinatown during the Chinese New Year season
as a matter of fact i've never set foot in Chinatown only until i started working in the area
little did i know that Chinatown would turn into what geylang serai would usually look like during the fasting month.
Rows and rows of stalls on the road in front of the shop houses, new year goodies galore!
However i have yet to walk around and experience the road side festivities.  Somehow smack in the middle of temple street near where my office is located, i think there's some sort of stage that is located there.. hmm or maybe its just one of the stalls who likes to play loud music and talk on the microphone *shrugs* like i said, i have yet to check anything out.
but omg the songs that they play everyday.... it is seriously getting on my nerves.
come to think of it, i never liked festive songs, be it for CNY, Hari Raya and sometimes Xmas because you'll tend to get sick of it after the constant replays after replays. tsk. 

Nowadays i miss having colleagues, full time colleagues that is.  It sometimes gets very lonely in the office when you're the only full time staff.  I always look forward to whenever everyone tends to be in the office at the same time, SL, aunt M, T.ania & DS.  sighsigh

2 shocking things today (to me but maybe not to you)

Shocker #1 - Heath Ledger found dead in his apartment.
Dear HL, I may not be one of your mega huge fans, but you were a good actor. 
One of those better ones who can actually act. RIP dude. Your fans will always remember you, i'm sure.

anyways, maannn when i first read about it, it was super surreal.  The dude was only 28! and i'm only 5 years younger than him.  It actually makes you think how unpredictable life is.  But like i told dee, death is an everyday thing.  As shocking as it is, life goes on aye. 

Shocker #2 - My mum has facebook!!!!!
OMG.  Imagine my shock when i saw my mum on facebook when i got back home from work!!!!!!
I was like, "mak you have facebook?" 
and my mum was like "yes"
(o-O)"
and then she started checking out my friends profiles since facebook has this function, which i had no idea they had, gave suggestion on friends she might know & when i was looking over her shoulder, most of them were my friends ?!?!?!?!?!?!? how is that possible? (btw i have yet to approve her friend request)
First it was multiply, which i didnt care since i dont actually use it, but facebook???
thank god facebook has a function called limited profile................... haizhaizhaiz

maybe i should start thinking of making my LJ semi friends-only (if have not already).  Then you people have to get an LJ account just to read my posts. muahahahhahahhaha (^-^)v

aiteaite more to blog
but my bed is already calling me

till then

ja-ne!

p.s- i finally figured out how to change my mood themes!! yay! i'm so liking mine now! (credit to: jackie22393 for yamapi's moodtheme)
bang!

a.ida - can you believe it? its already 2008? I'm turning 25! dah mid twenties! dah tua!! eh you leh, turning 24 kan?

me - yup

a.ida - for how long are you going to be singaling (def: single), i'm worried for you. (with her serious face)

me - haha how am i suppose to know (dreading the convo already)

a.ida - kau takde siapa2 kau suka ke? try pergi cari ke? ( translation: Don't you have anyone that you like? Why don't you try and find for one?)

me - heh at this juncture of my life there really no one i'm interested in, i go to work, i go home that's my daily routine, whoever i used to like no longer interests me. and how do you find someone you tell me? hahaha a.ida stop it cannn?

a.ida - eh dikira kan kau ni well traveled jugak, betul ke kau tak jumpa siapa2?

me - eh just because i go to various places does not mean i go there to find someone.

a.ida - takpe aku doakan harap2 kau jumpa jodoh kau.

.... @-@"
and this is only the summary of the convo i had with a.ida when i met up with her yesterday.
I can't seem to escape from this topic especially with my 'older' friends.

I'm perfectly happy being single thankyouverymuch
accept it can? stop asking me the same questions every time you meet me. The answer is not gonna change unless i really do meet someone which i don't forsee anytime soon since i've still got loads of things i wanna do and i dont need the stress of being in a relationship. Even my mother is not this naggy. eh wait, maybe when it comes to this matter lah, she's never asked me about it, only you ppl ar. Asal risau sangat that i'm not attached?? (I'm sorry my mandarin speaking friends, i just felt like using malay since most of these question are usually asked by my malay friends)

oh and another thing, you peeps know who you are rite, please stop whatsoever idea you might have on setting me up with a malay guy. Not that i have anything against malay guys. Unless he speaks english most of the time, not mat looking, does not own a single tapered pants in his wardrobe, have diverse interests in other things besides soccer, listens to mandarin/j-pop songs, speaks his mind, than maybe i can consider. But other than that, sorry eh takpayah susahsusah. lol. (hmm maybe that's why i'm still single wahahahhaha)

Anyways enough of this topic. Lets move on (^-')b

Work has been slow. Boss just gave me a marketing task that I have no idea where to start since i've never done it before and have yet to learn at all and the boss obviously has no idea on the heads and tails of it. Thanks ar boss.

So here i am typing away, wasting time, trying to come up with an idea how shld i get the task started. Any marketing gurus that can helpp meeee? (Taniaaa, miss mrktg student where are youuuu?)

This is mainly the reason why i want to continue my studies. It sucks not knowing about things, especially things that I know i would be learning if i was still in school. haiz. (*sidetrack* I have a stomachache and no i dont feel like going to the toilet, i want to go home and sleeeep!! *endofsidetrack*)

I've been on an online spreeeeee frenzy during the weekend. I have to stop spending online! I'm still deciding whether i should get this bag and its order deadline is tonight!! I still have to save up for my june trip. Rest assured i've not really spent much, i'm still on track to buy my plane tix next month. And hopefully by then seats will still be available for the flight, speaking of which my boss has given me the okay for me to take leave for that entire week for my trip! yay!

Its been a couple of months now, almost close to a year, and i miss owning an ipod!!! As much as i appreciate having the zune as my birthday present, nothing can compare to the functions of an ipod! maybe i'm just prejudiced! hah!
So this year on the top of my wish list to get for this year is....




an ipod touch!
i shall wait for the annual IT fair to get this baby (^-')b

Next to top my list is....



Yamashita Tomohisa

lol! i'm kidding
but in all seriousness he's cute, a sweetheart and a gd actor + singer
what's not to love? o(^-^)o

oh yea where was i?
yes next big item in things i'm aiming to get



my own laptop!
Altho i'm still not sure which model/brand i would like to get, I'm getting tired of hauling my work laptop to and from home everyday
my back and shoulders cannot take it already
it would be a totally different story if my work laptop is muchmuch lighter.

As you may notice my list of things i need to get/buy usually revolves around gadgets, food and travel.
Girl where are your fashion accessories/stuff? *does mr ferlin eyebrow thingy*
erm its not usually things i go after? lol
I'll only buy clothes when i only have the sudden urge to stock up my wardrobe and my fashion accessory likes are my long necklaces with interesting pendants. Other than that i'm comfortable with my tshirt and jeans thankyouverymuch =) I can wear it to work and wear it whenever, for whatever. (^-')v

its starting to pour again..
Don't you just love the weather? I like the natural coolness as opposed to aircons!

2 hrs till knock off!
I'm gonna go home, eat, watch tv and sleep!!!
I am such a pig.
wahahaha!

You know what i like about festive season lurking around the corner?
The food that comes along with it!

like when during xmas Starbucks will never fail to have their peppermint mocha drink and now with chinese new year around the corner, there's the prosperity burger and twister fries! yum!
its all about food people!

its a wonder i'm still skinny.
oh speaking of which i gained 4kg since the last time i checked my weight ages ago.
yay! *does happy dance*
tho it would certainly be helpful if i gained weight in the right places. wahahahhahahaha

today is an extremely lazy monday
apart from the urgent task i had to do as soon as i stepped into the office
i have done nothing else except for uploading photos in my baldi gambar aka photobuckettt.
and i'm still not done yet! I have tons of photos and i'm not even uploading all of em'!

I miss my sister tho it has only been what four days? and i've been talking to her on skype every night.
I miss her even more so when i want to do things that i would usually call her to do together, like watch a movie.
Siblings are the top most people you can truly rely on and the fact that my other siblings are still young and it is a school night. sigh.

I sooo wanna watch National Treasure 2! Maybe i should wait when the DVD comes out or when it is shown on cable.

Its lunch time now and I'm too lazy to step out of the office to buy food. Everything that i can is closed and the only thing left in the vicinity of the part of chinatown i am in only has macdonalds and trusty ol' 7-eleven. oh and i do have that stash of instant noodles somewhere beside my desk. lol.

ok maybe i should just go to MacDonalds.
aite peeps till then =)