I was reading my old blog and came across this entry i posted up 5 years back, thought that I'd share it again here.

This is a tribute to the nice guys.
The nice guys that finish last, that never become more than friends, that endure hours of whining and bitching about what assholes guys are, while disproving the very point. This is dedicated to those guys who always provide a shoulder to lean on but restrain themselves to tentative hugs, those guys who hold open doors and give reassuring pats on the back and sit patiently outside the changing room at department stores. This is in honour of the guys that obligingly reiterate how cute/beautiful/smart/funny/sexy their female friends are at the appropriate moment, because they know most girls need that litany of support. This is in honour of the guys with open minds, with laid-back attitudes, with honest concern. This is in honour of the guys who respect a girls every facet, from her privacy to her theology to her clothing style.

This is for the guys who escort their drunk, bewildered female friends back from parties and never take advantage once theyre at her door, for the guys who accompany girls to bars as buffers against the rest of the creepy male population, for the guys who know a girl is fishing for compliments but give them out anyway, for the guys who always play by the rules in a game where the rules favor cheaters, for the guys who are accredited as boyfriend material but somehow dont end up being boyfriends, for all the nice guys who are overlooked, underestimated, and unappreciated, for all the nice guys who are manipulated, misled, and unjustly abandoned, this is for you.

This is for that time she left 40 urgent messages on your cell phone, and when you called her back, she spent three hours painstakingly dissecting two sentences her boyfriend said to her over dinner. And even though you thought her boyfriend was a chump and a jerk, you assured her that it was all ok and she shouldnt worry about it. This is for that time she interrupted the best killing spree you'd ever orchestrated in GTA3 to rant about a rumor that romantically linked her and the guy she thinks is the most repulsive person in the world. And even though you thought it was immature and you had nothing against the guy, you paused the game for two hours and helped her concoct a counter-rumor to spread around the floor. This is also for that time she didnt have a date, so after numerous vows that there was nothing serious between the two of you, she dragged you to a party where you knew nobody, the beer was awful, and she flirted shamelessly with you, justifying each fit of reckless teasing by announcing to everyone: oh, but were just friends! And even though you were invited purely as a symbolic warm body for her ego, you went anyways. Because you're nice like that.

The nice guys dont often get credit where credit is due. And perhaps more disturbing, the nice guys dont seem to get laid as often as they should. And I wish I could logically explain this trend, but I cant. From what I have observed on campus and what I have learned from talking to friends at other schools and in the workplace, the only conclusion I can form is that many girls are just illogical, manipulative bitches. Many of them claim they just want to date a nice guy, but when presented with such a specimen, they say irrational, confusing things such as oh, hes too nice to date or he would be a good boyfriend but hes not for me or he already puts up with so much from me, I couldnt possibly ask him out! or the most frustrating of all: no, it would ruin our friendship. Yet, they continue to lament the lack of datable men in the world, and they expect their too-nice-to-date male friends to sympathize and apologize for the men that are jerks. Sorry, guys, girls like that are beyond my ability to fathom. I cant figure out why the connection breaks down between what they say (I want a nice guy!) and what they do (Im going to sleep with this complete ass now!). But one thing I can do, is say that the nice-guy-finishes-last phenomenon doesnt last forever. There are definitely many girls who grow out of that train of thought and realize they should be dating the nice guys, not taking them for granted. The tricky part is finding those girls, and even trickier, finding the ones that are single.

So, until those girls are found, I propose a toast to all the nice guys. You know who you are, and I know youre sick of hearing yourself described as ubiquitously nice. But the truth of the matter is, the world needs your patience in the department store, your holding open of doors, your party escorting services, your propensity to be a sucker for a pretty smile. For all the crazy, inane, absurd things you tolerate, for all the situations where you are the faceless, nameless hero, my accolades, my acknowledgement, and my gratitude go out to you. You do have credibility in this society, and your well deserved vindication is coming.

So.. I started drafting an entry this morning, and well its evening now and I have not even completed that draft. LOL.
I'm no longer inspired to blog these days. My life revolves around work just the way i like it so my life ain't that interesting to begin with :P
I tweet more nowadays just because its convenient and its convenient to do so with my blackberry storm :P

Oh yes i got meself a new phone! Its a month old now so kinda an old update hehe but i've been eyeing this phone eversince it first got announced and well the name of the phone helps as well, storm = arashi. LOLOLOL!



My baby. Of course my wallpaper has to be my favourite boys ;)

Today has been a slow day. I didn't go to work today because of the thing called the cramps. I hate cramps, it feels like a bulldozer ran over my stomach. I don't usually get the cramps but the fasting month always makes my system go out of whack especially now since i'm taking meds for me heart. bleah.

Eid is fast approaching, not that i'm looking forward to it. It'll be the same as every year me thinks. The only thing difference between last year's and this year is that i won't be in the ICU recovering from heart surgery hurhur. What i'm looking forward to more than anything else is my trip to Tokyo in December. 3 more months baby! I am so excited. I hope my monthly savings will be able to cover my whole trip. It ain't exactly a breeze having to save up almost half of my salary each month for the trip but i'm sure it'll be worth it. Experience vs Material things, i very much rather have the former. Material things don't last but memories are precious and part of who you are as a person. Well at least that is what i think.

Saturday with my favourite girls was awesome. Met up with ifah, aida and her hubby for our 'breaking fast picnic' @ Class 95's Movies in the Park. The place was packed when we arrived! and it was only about 6.20pm. We were able to get a spot near the tents but unfortunately we were seated near the public footpath so throughout the first movie, Iron Man, there was a constant stream of people walking up and down the footpath. They were either people who couldn't sit still or came late for the movie. Thank god when it came to the 2nd movie most ppl who brought their young kids started making their way home mainly bcoz i guess their kids were tired. We were able to move towards the center of the viewing area for Transformers: Revenge of the fallen and our new spot was fantastic! Will definitely look forward to the next Movies in the Park. Kudos to Class95 for the awesome event (^-^)b




Heard the buzz about the VMA's today? Well particularly about Kanye West's stunt. He should have not interrupted Taylor Swift's moment on stage when she won the Best Female Video Award. I'm not a huge fan of hers but she did work hard and totally deserved the award. Kanye is simply put an immature egotistical prat. Beyonce is one classy awesome lady when she gave Taylor her moment after she won Video of the Year award. I have new found respect for Beyonce (^-')b

If you have no clue what i'm talking about, here are the videos if you're interested:
( VMAs )

Last but not least HAPPY BIRTHDAY to my darling sis Asyhhie!!!
*throws confetti*
All the best in your future endeavors! Best wishes and God Bless!
I love you sis *hugs*

I'm gonna dedicate this video i'm going to share with you guys to my darling sis. We are HUGE Josh Groban fans and I love this performance Josh did on Oprah. enjoy!



Savannah is one lucky girl aint she? sighs. :)

Sigh sometimes i think i'm a walking a contradiction. I don't listen to my own advice.
I blame my previous entry on PMS.
Remind me never to blog when i'm having one of those days LOL!
I was re-reading my past entries and omg how i cringe at some of them. No more talk about this crazy thing called love well in my case the lack thereof.  I'll only do so when i actually do fall in love, till then somebody please slap me if i ever do it again. I shall gather more experience before expressing my views on it any further than I already have. Mr Cupid hit me with your best shot LOL :P

Anyhoo thank you mx (muted_orison ) and lia (mklia )for your comments. *hugs*
I will keep your advices in mind and for future reference :)

Yay its the weekend! It has been a hectic week, at least for me. Don't you just love it when dozens of deadlines seem to fall all around the same time? wheee...  Well time to rest, catch up on sleep and do nothing. But then again i brought work home. Stuff to draft for an upcoming trial and I have yet to get started on my Japanese homework ehehehehe

Righto I have more to blog about but I'm tired and need sleep
Apologies for this pointless entry, I had actually typed out a long one but LJ & the WWW has been bitchy and erased my unsaved entry *bluek*

I've uploaded some photos I took at darling aida's wedding on facebook here
Those are only the solemnnization ceremony. I have yet to upload the wedding reception (majlis persandingan - is that how it's spelled?lol) photos.
Not all of the photos I took of the two days will be uploaded, only a selected few coz 1 - with the sucky internet connection these past few days I'm lucky to even upload some of them after several tries and 2 - I've too many photos and uploading them all will bore you with repetitions hurhur. Will upload the 2nd day photos soon.

Till then me darlings.
おやすみなさい  :)

The weekend is ending and i can already forsee a v.busy week ahead. Despite the 'long' weekend next week, it'll be darling aida's big day!  So many people getting married it seems. Tho at times when tiny negative thoughts decides to catch me off guard, i end up feeling lonely for myself. Don't get me wrong tho, i can't forsee seeing myself getting married anytime soon (if there is even tt remote possibility in the future), i'm perfectly happy being single since i still have a lot of things in life i want to do first, then there's also the having to find a life partner first ahaha! But I think its nice to actually have someone to be there for you. Someone who can actually fill your empty heart with a little warmth, tho i keep telling myself i'm not lonely. Who am I kidding but ah well who cares really. So long as I keep doing my best in my work and continue smiling, nothing can bring me down. gambarimasu!

*an hour later*
lol i left this post hanging and now i have no idea what to continue with :P
hmm since we were on the topic of aida's wedding. I HAVE NOTHING TO WEAR!!
When was the last time i went to a 'traditional' malay void deck wedding? hmmmz *scratches head*  I think it was noreen's a couple of years back. That one also i didnt wear a 'baju kurung'. haizhaiz i need to go to geylang to get one this week. Then most probably it wld also double as my raya outfit this year. Now the question is... 'Can I find someting that will fit me????'  sigh the disadvantages of being tall in an asian country. 
Next problem, I have no shoes either to go with my non-existant 'baju kurung'. The only heels that i have tt might do the job is my 3 year old brown wedges tt has been collecting dust in the shoe cupboard. Ah yes i don't wear much heels. Its uncomfortable, v.difficult to find my size andd i'll get even more stared at if i wear em'. hmmz.
Ask me again why do I live in Singapore? bluek.

I’ve been relatively busy with work.  It’s been quite an exhausting couple of weeks considering one of my colleagues being on a month’s leave and having to cope w/ one man down. It’s certainly been an experience and I ain’t complaining since I do enjoy my work. It’s all about time management me thinks.  And it certainly helps that at certain times of the day I have random Arashi songs in my head playing in loops. Don't ask me why but it kinda makes my day bearable. Hopefully till she’s back I won’t run out of gas and fall ill or something *cross fingers*

Therefore I’m making full use of this weekend to rest up and stay at home coz I foresee a very busy few weeks ahead. (Aida’s wedding in 2 weeks!)

In other news, My Tokyo trip in December is confirmed!!  It’s going to be a solo trip this time since I couldn’t find anyone interested to go with me.  Both me flights and accommodation are already booked!

Thank god I booked flights when I did. Malaysian Airlines is currently having a promo till the end of July and S$399 to Tokyo is meccha cheap! I had intended to book my flight the week before on a Thursday after having gathered opinions from my family and friends and then I realized I had not renewed my Passport yet!  So I quickly went online to the ICA website and applied for my new passport online. The convenience of the WWW.  Suki! Got a notification on a Saturday morning that I could collect it on Tuesday onwards and I quickly arranged for an e-appointment to collect it during lunchtime.  Unlike previously when you had to wait for hours to collect your passport at the ICA, I had just collected my queue number and was just about to sit down at the waiting area when my number got called! So fast!  The ICA officer was a malay lady and she was super duper friendly. She was going on and on about her childhood days and the solar eclipse. All I could do was smile and nod in agreement ^-^” lol!

The same evening I decided to book my flight tix lest it gets sold out. Originally I had intended to fly off on 23 Dec however the evening flight that I wanted was fully booked so instead of taking the morning flight which means I’ll arrive in Tokyo in the late afternoon, wasting a day in Tokyo, I decided to take an extra day leave and pick the evening flight a day earlier.  Emailed the inn I’m booked at to extend my reservation period to 10 nights and I proceeded to book my flight tix! Now that I have the 2 most important things confirmed, next thing to do is lay out my itinerary and continue saving up for my trip! So exciting! Xmas and New Years in Tokyo! I kinda know where I want to go and stuff, but I’m still reading forums and reviews of folks who have been there.  Free and Easy Do It Yourself trips are fun! Don’t you think so? Yes I’m the kind of person who likes to plan. (^-^)v

Well hopefully I get to meet awesome people on my trip. I’m calling this my “self discovery & photography trip” hehe..

I have more to blog about but I’m exhausted and my eyes lids are getting heavy. Till next post me darlings, have a great weekend! Well what's left of it anyways (^-^)b

Found myself locked out of the office for the second time in 2 weeks. I’m one out of the two legal staff who usually comes in early and since the receptionist who usually starts work at about 7.30/8.00 am is on leave till the end of the week and big boss who is always early decided to come in later, there was no one to unlock the doors. So my fellow colleague and I had to wait outside the office doors for about 20 minutes before someone came to unlock the door. They should seriously consider giving one of us a copy of the office key lest this happens again.

It’s been quite awhile since I last blogged. Mainly because I have been pretty busy with work, and when I actually do have something to update about I’ll lose the urge to. I’ll just stare at the ‘post new entry’ screen and after a few minutes trying to put my thoughts into words, I’ll close the window. LOL. Which is why I have twitter for moments like those. Haha.

Can you believe it? We are almost in mid-June! Wow half a year went by so fast! How has your 2009 been so far? Mine has been going awesome, and if you aren’t as enthusiastic as I am, don’t worry things will get better. Gambare! Like a wise person once said, “How your life is currently is exactly the way you want it to be.”

Anyways have I ever mentioned about my fear of riding on a motorbike? Which is one of the reasons why I have never ridden on one, even if it is on my brother’s. Well on Monday I conquered that fear! Woot!

 
-Sho being happy for me LOL-

Ok-lah I only conquered it because I had overslept, was extremely late for work and as luck would have it my 3rd brother was on leave! So I asked him to give me a ride to work. I was nervous but I don’t like to be late for work so I didn’t let the fear get to me. Oh boy was that an experience.

For the first half of the journey I had my eyes half closed and was praying for the ride to be a smooth one. By the second half of the journey I was less nervous, had my eyes open but still praying lol. Well all in all I think I still prefer the safety of being in a car, being a pillion you have to have absolute trust in the rider lest he’ll take unnecessary risks or speeds up like there’s a demon on his tail and I don’t like how I had to breathe in all the fumes and carbon monoxide on the road. :P

I guess now I won’t be so afraid to hitch a ride on my brother’s bike but I still would consider taking public transportation first before I’ll ever consider my 2nd ride(^-^)v

Oh and speaking of which, on the said Monday was my brother’s 21st birthday no less. LOL! Happy Belated Birthday bro!

(Just for future reference for those who are confused when I’m referring to a particular sibling I’ll mention them in the order they are born in, i.e asyhhieis my 2nd sister since she is the 2nd in the family and so on, get the drift?)
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Speaking of which, I finally signed up for Japanese language classes at my neighbourhood CC last week with my 4th Brother! My brother was looking through the latest Tampines Central CC flyer and saw that they were offering Japanese Elementary 1 at the end of this month and since he was interested and would only sign up if there is someone who would join with him, I told  myself  'why not' since I’ve been itching to sign up at Ikoma but never got around to doing so and had ended up studying on my own hahaha
Yay i'm excited!

Sashi’s farewell party was held last Friday @ ECP, kindly organized by Kay. I decided to bake brownies coz that seemed to be the easiest thing to bake on a work-night. Although I did not know about ¾ of the people who attended, I had fun! I enjoy meeting new people, tho I might be shy/awkward at first ehehe (^-‘)v Met a number of awesome people and they certainly left an impression on me. All good I assure you. There were too many names to remember but the ones I do; Michelle, Priscilla, Johanna, Sam (I think there are 2 of you), Ken & Kewal oh and who can forget the adorable LJ! If any of you are reading this, Hello! *waves* Hopefully we’ll meet up again soon!

I was talking to the guys that night and I kinda realise something, and mind you this is totally random. I think if I ever in the near or distant future do eventually start dating (this is of course if guys stop getting intimidated by me, I am really nice, honest! lol), I would prefer if the guy have somewhat similar interest in food as me hahaha! I don’t care if their interest lies in other things, I can always learn to like it or understand it, but when it comes to food, I prefer someone who enjoys eating as much as me. For example, I LOVE Japanese food but if the guy hates/dislike it and the only time I can eat it is on my own or with friends who also enjoy eating Japanese food (which is not many) then that is already a minus factor methinks. I don’t care about fine dining or classy places, why fork out money for most likely bad tasting food, tho i don't mind paying if the food is meccha umai! I feel comfortable right smack in the middle of a hawker center as long as I find good food and the venue ain’t too stuffy. So as long as the guy ain’t choosy when it comes to food and enjoy eating as much as I do, so much the better.

Well Kay and the guys (i.e Vik & Co) were asking me on the wee hours of Saturday morning when we were hanging out at a café, what is my type of guy? Thing is I never really answered and they came to a conclusion that it would be a Japanese guy, which is not surprising considering my love for most things Japanese. Best thing is, I never really did say anything except for the tiny fact that I don’t really like malay guys even tho I keep hearing from my non-malay friends that malay guys are usually hot. Got meh? Yes I know I’m very un-malay, I don’t listen to malay songs, I don’t watch Suria channel and I need a translator/dictionary if I discover a ‘cheem’ malay word. Even when I have to talk to a client in malay I would write my sentences on paper first and look up the English-Malay dictionary for words I’m not sure of hahaha A Chinese colleague was telling me something about ‘petai’ and I was like “err what is Petai?” and I was asked if I’m sure I’m malay LOL

Anyways lets not digress to how ‘un-malay’ I am. So what is my type of guy? I never really thought of it and neither do I have a list. I guess so long as the guy doesn’t smoke (unless he slowly wants to give me lung cancer and die faster), enjoys eating, is intelligent, spontaneous, kind hearted and easy going, everything else is secondary. It would be a plus if he looks like any of the Arashi members or Mizushima Hiro!! (I couldn't decide on one) LOL!



I swear I never intended to blog about this when I started this post lol! I’m blaming it on the slow day in the office. Speaking of which a very happy client just brought Nasi Briyani for the whole firm! Yay! Briyani for lunch! The yummy smell is making hungry already hee~

Weekend is approaching fast! It’s another Friday tomorrow! I’m anticipating a busy weekend, all with darling Aida in them. She’s preparing for her wedding photo shoot and we’ll be doing all the ‘girly’ stuff this weekend ahahahaha I’m sure it’s going to be fun!

The PC show 2009 is also happening this weekend and it starts today! Darn I’m tempted to get the Toshiba NB200, so pwetttyy. Love at first sight when I first saw it at Funan! If only it comes in red, but the brown bronzy color is gorgeous as well. I wonder if they have free RAM upgrade, then that will be like cherry on top! I’m already overbudget for the month but we’ll see how everything turns out.

I was watching Arashi’s latest appearance on Utaban a couple of nights ago. Omg Arashi + Japanese comedians = win! And Ohno is so adorable albeit his sunburn haha! Speaking of Ohno I found out that he has the same birthday as my big boss! Oh and have you watched Arashi’s appearance on HEYx3 where they did a survey targeted at various group of people on the streets? Ohno’s expressions = priceless! I think he looked like he was going to cry at one point lol!


See how tanned ohno-kun looked in Utaban, I think he has gotten even more darker in the latest episode of ANS(below).

Not a flattering pic of him i know, but i'm just showing you how burnt Ohno-kun looks now. Its obvious how the make-up artist is trying to cover his sunburn, unsucessfully tho haha. As much as i understand how much he loves fishing, the dark tan is a bit too much no?  Has he never heard of sun screen? lol

Anyways I have been thinking quite a bit on my Japan trip, working out the budget / itinerary. Tentatively it looks like it might be a solo one, unless anyone would like to join me.  I might be pushing the trip to the end of December, perhaps during Xmas-NewYear week. Hopefully I'll be able to confirm the dates in Jul/Aug. (^-^)b

Righto as I’m drafting this on MS Word, I’m already in the middle of page 3 hurhur. Apologies for the meccha long entry. So many things to update on and now I’ve run out of steam, just in time for Lunch! Yay! Have a great day ahead all!

So how is everyone enjoying their long Easter holiday weekend? Well for the most part of mine i'm busy slacking at home watching online videos and doing personal online research, i'll let you know what i'm researching on it a bit. I love research don't you LOL!
ok quick random updates!

1 - Oasis' concert at the Indoor Stadium last Sunday was a blast, let's just say it was a day to remember. It was one hell of an experience, especially when i thought i almost died LOL! Never am i going to stand in the first few rows of a free standing crowd ever again. Rowdy concert goers pushing you left right and center, at one point I thought I was going to fall and be trampled by strangers. Heck the view from the back is still good especially when I'm tall so all is goood (^-^)b




2 - Lately I have had a handful of friends who went or is planning to go to Japan for holiday/work/school trip and every time I get a lil bit jealous because I really wanna go too!! So I have decided for my 25th Birthday in November this year I am going to do my very own budget trip to Tokyo, Japan! Wooot! I think I deserve a trip after everything that i've been through these past few months. Budget is gonna be tight, I found a hostel i'm considering and I like planning and doing research for a trip, Its now or never baby, life is too short to live in regret! lol
Besides the usual places in Tokyo that I want to go to like Shibuya, Harujuku, Akihabara, etc, I'm thinking of going to Aiba's family restaurant in Chiba. I could have my birthday lunch/dinner there, perhaps aye? And I'm looking for a travel buddy if anyone is interested *grinz*
If not a solo trip is okay with me too, bring on the adventure! Another alternative is if there is anyone who is already in Tokyo would want to meet up or show me around that will be awesome too!

Wee~ i'm damn excited for this trip! I'm still doing my reearch and planning out the budget and itinerary and i'm keeping my fingers crossed that everything will work out smoothly. I'll update my progress on this trip as and when there is progress (^-^)v

3 - I think i realised something this week, whenever I'm in need of a stress reliever the Arashi boys never fails to make me laugh, especially Aiba. Was looking back on a meme I did on facebook and there was a question on who makes me laugh and my answer was Aiba. The dude really cracks me up with his baka-ness and is it just me or is he getting better looking. Maybe he has always looked like that but i've never noticed? Ironically he was the first member i noticed when I was watching an older Arashi PV a couple years back and they were simply another J-pop group to me before I really got into them and thereafter all the other members started shining brighter :P

4 - Eversince the public transportation service providers have been fined early last week for lapses in their services, I must say the public buses have kinda improved during peak hours. But i have doubts that they will keep up with it coz sooner or later, the peak hour services will go back to before, never on time and you have to wait for ages for a feeder service and then the bus service providers, like routine, will get fined again and who gets affected? The public, because these public service providers will raise their fares again. I hope they prove me wrong.

5 - If you're in sg, I'm sure you've read/heard about the food poisoning episode with the geylang rojak stall. My condolences to the families who lost their loved ones. This tragedy i must say kinda reminds me of the fragility of life. One moment you are enjoying life, planning for the future, the next minute your life can just be cut short because of something you ate. A person can never predict how long or how short their life is going to be so Carpe Diem people! :)

6 - Eversince the opening of Tampines 1 at Tampines Central, mannn Tampines is even more crowded!!!! Me don't like. Its very hard navigating through eastlink mall that connects the interchange to the MRT station, i already hated it when they started having carts in the area bluek~ Well considering the Mall has just opened maybe the crowds is to be expected. Hopefully the hype of the new mall will die down eventually. Did i mention how much i hate crowds LOL

7 - Got around to watching Arashi's AAA 2008 concert and i love it! If only they had a concert here in Singapore. My favourite performance has got to be Subarashiki Sekai and Sirius.
Before i sign off i'm sharing the videos here, enjoy!

( Videos here! )

*caution long entry ahead, you have been warned (^-^)

Today is a very slow day, not much work in the office and thus I am borreddd. I’ve finished my draft of the mitigation plea for an upcoming hearing next week and am currently waiting for the notification of my EFS document to be approved and any other work that any of the lawyers have for me.

Can’t wait for the day to end! Meeting up with 2nd sis later and we are headed to *Scape to watch live band performances for WeekendTRIP Noise Edition. Been awhile since I watched a live performance andd Quasimodo is in the line up. Remember the band I mentioned during my New Year entry? (^-^)

In my attempt to kill time I’ve been reading my past entries on LJ. Jogged quite a number of memories I’ve forgotten. This is one of the aspects of blogging that I like. It allows you to take a step back and see the person you were in the past and how far you have grown.

Oh! Btw Naz I found this entry in April 2007 mentioning our plans to go backpacking across Europe in 2010 in the comments section. Who would have thought that we would have had our winter trip 8 months down the road? But I still want to do the backpacking trip! There are loads more cities that I have yet to visit, like Venice and Paris! And you still want to experience a snowy day right? haha

I also came across the entry where Gordon from AW used to be the voice at the back of my head saying, “How your life is currently is exactly the way you want it to be.” And to this day I still agree.

I had qualms going back into legal work, afraid that I’ll mess things up, afraid that the 1 ½ years I spent pursuing my interest in Events management will go to waste. But alas the economic crises does not allow one who is also from a low income single parent family to be choosy and be idealistic. So I conceded, with Hazie’s help clinched an interview with a law firm and to sum it up the rest as they say is History. Before I started work I was freaking nervous. “ What if I screw up?” “arghhh I haven’t done law in ages what if I don’t remember anything” “ What if I’m making the biggest mistake in my life?” “What if I end up like those people who turn up for a few days of work and end up quitting??” I was full of what if questions and that was not making me any less nervous.

On the Saturday before I started work, met up with the clique in Bugis. One other reasons for the trip there besides grabbing dinner is for me to get some much needed ‘office’ clothes. Whilst wondering around aimlessly around the mall with the guys I saw a quote by Lance Armstrong: -

The quote kinda left an impression on me. I don’t know why but I kept telling myself whatever happens, pain is temporary and if I quit the pain will last forever. No matter how tough things get I should keep moving forward. Well that is what I’ve been doing. It has been two weeks and what do you know I am actually currently enjoying my job.I don’t feel as tired after work as I used to during my previous job. When I want to de-stress I look forward to either going home and spend time with my siblings who never fails to make me laugh and forget my ‘stress’ or meet up with friends for an impromptu cup of Joe or dinner. Even with my current lack of finances since I’m meccha broke for the month till my pay comes in, I am happy. I have a job, I have an awesome family and I have awesome friends. What else does a girl need? I am a simple girl with simple needs (^-')v

Darling Aida contacted me this morning. She is meccha stress. Her wedding is in less than 6 months and she is not sure of what is entirely going on in terms of the wedding details. All she sees is loads of moolahs flying away from her. How can one not know the going ons of her own wedding? Tsktsk LOL.

So tomorrow I volunteered to come over to her abode and help get things sorted. What are best buds for kan. Speaking of which I still have no idea what I’m suppose to wear on her wedding day since me together with the ‘mak andam’ is supposed to follow the bride and groom to and from their respective homes.

Despite being malay, I am a novice when it comes to malay weddings. Truth be told I never understood the romance in void deck weddings heh and please don’t say because its cheap. I think that it is a load of BS. The quotes that I’ve seen and heard in regards to malay void deck weddings, I think if the bride and groom’s family combine forces a.k.a moolahs they can do it wherever they want.

The usual reason that I get for not doing so? The proud parents of the respective bride and groom want to host their own celebration under the void deck. …klah what ever rocks their boats lol. And do you really need at least more than 3 changes of outfits?? Please lah siapa nak tengokkkk (who wants to seeee). And isn’t it blardy hot at the void deck despite even attempting to install temporary fans? Imagine wearing your best ‘baju kurung’ and whatnots and sweat running down your back and feeling that you’re almost melting like an ice-cream under the hot sun.

If it were ever up to me, this is if I ever in the very far far future find someone who is able to convince me to tie the knot with; I’d have a nice intimate affair somewhere nice with CLOSE friends and family. No need to invite all the countless relatives you’ve never known existed or see once in a very blue moon or acquaintances who only find you when they need something.

Oh and there’s this quote by Jim Morrison that I stumbled upon: -



I think I have to agree with the above and I am no longer afraid of pain. No longer afraid of feeling, no longer afraid of things that have yet to happen. Nervous perhaps, but not so much of being afraid. I’ve experienced both physical and emotional pain and hey I’m still here alive and kicking, and with everything that I’ve been through I’m perfectly happy and contented with my life. Things happen for a reason right? Tho I occasionally still get the pangs of wanting to do more things like further my studies, travel around the world, meet a new guy, but I realise that I am in no hurry. When the opportunity comes it will come. Knowledge will still be there when I have the means and the opportunity to pursue it, countries and cities will be just where they are when I have the means to fly abroad, the right guy will come along when I least expect it.

C’est la vie

Hello me darlings,
I just came back from my late night run. Yes i finally got off my butt and went to the park behind my house for a run. 3 rounds around the park aint that bad me thinks altho i did brisk walk most of the way since my stamina aint there yet LOL It was refreshing nevertheless since i was feeling restless beforehand. The restlessness has somewhat become a routine during boring eventless weekends =P The weather was perfect since it was raining heavily in the late afternoon/evening and the air was still cool and the stars were out with no clouds in sight. It was quite lovely tho i wish there was someone there with me to point out the different constellations in the sky. The only one i know is the Orion, since its the most prominent lol

The past week has been dreary except for the random heavy rain <3, Hugh Jackman's hosting at the Oscars, American Idol group 2 performance and the hilarious programme which is Pesta Perdana 10 on Suria.
Anddd before i forget, during the course of the week two law ex-coursemates of mine got MARRIED!!!! say what!? So young and married.  Why the rush? But whatever makes them happy aye? My best wishes to them (^-^)b

Speaking of which did I mention that i received a letter from the government to join their 'matchmaking' services, what do they call it.. the SDU? ROFL
I know they want singles to hook up, get married and have babies to boost the country's birthrate. The irony of it all? I cannot have children unless i want to risk my life in doing so wahahahhahahaha

Oh and other than that i had a job interview which i still have no idea of its outcome tho i'm not really worried if i don't get the job because my heart is uneasy and my gut tells me that i would be taking a step back should i get it. Ah well. I'll leave it up to the powers that be :)

oh yes American Idol group 2. Lovelovelove Allison Iraheta.  When i heard she was going to sing 'Alone' by Heart, I thought omg she was going to mess it up like previous contestants who had sang that song.  The only singer that I've heard sing it who had done the song justice was Carrie Underwood. But surprisesurpirse, that Allison girl can sing.  She made me sit up and gave me slight goosebumps even tho she went slightly off tune at certain parts i think mostly due to nerves.  Altho i can't really remember her personality, she is definitely one of the few to watch in the competition.  The other two, Kris Allen and Adam Lambert who got in, well no surprises there, i expected them to go through after watching the group perform but I'm still not sure of them yet.  Adam's performance of 'Satisfaction' was only okay for me, a bit pitchy so we'll see what he does in the Top 12 and honestly i can't remember Kris Allen's performance that much lol.  I do hope that for the wild card round they bring back Nick Mitchell (Norman Gentle LOL) and Megan Corkrey back. Norman Gentle performance was just awesome. The most entertaining idol contestant ever.

Pesta Perdana 10. Against my better judgement I actually watched it because I had nothing better to do since i was waiting for Survivor to start on Channel 5 and my sister wanted to watch it.  Well 3/4 of the shows and artists that were nominated, except for the veterans, lets just say I have no freaking clue what or who they are since I don't watch Suria.  The only time i watch Suria is when someone in the family happens to change the channel and we spot something hilarious.  Which brings me to Pesta Perdana 10.  It was the most hilarious award show that I've ever watched only because of how bad it was.  The dead air time, the lapse in organization, cues and awkwardness on stage. Since it's in its 10th year running, I would have expected that the show will be a lot better and smoother.

The hosting was Bad, coming from Aaron Aziz i'm not surprised.  Aaron please leave the hosting to people who can actually host.  And at this day and age, can't Suria afford a tele-prompter?   Its awkward to see presenters/hosts holding cards and reading from them of which half of the time their eyes are on the cards.  This does not only apply to Pesta Perdana but almost all Suria 'Live' studio shows.  Or they can always do it like what MTV TRL used to do, hold huge cue cards near the camera so the host can read off it and still look at the camera. LOL

Pesta Perdana 9 won an award during the show, not sure how well it was last year since I didnt watch it but if Pesta Perdana 10 wins it next year, i swear the awards are rigged lol.

ah well enough rambling, my dose of current US TV shows are on hold since most of them are on a 3 week break. ZOMG. I have no idea why it is that long but oh well I can always catch up on my manga/animes which I have not been keeping up to date on. LOL

On a side note, i miss my friends.  Everyone is busy and some are not even in SG.  For those who are, let's meet up soon okay.  Oh and i'm looking at photos my sister just posted up (she went to JB with her friends), it's making me crave for seafood!!!! Chilli crab, butter prawns, calamari... ahhhhh my mouth is watering just thinking of it.  I'm still waiting for the JB seafood eating trip to actually materailze!!!!  hmmm speaking of which i need to renew my passport LOL

oh and ARASHI's 2009/2010 calander is OUTT!! YAY!  I have yet to collect mine at Kino but i am patient.  I can always look at photos posted up by over zealous fans on LJ comms haha

all this random talk has made me hungry.  Gonna go make me some instant noodles now. 
Have a good week folks!
 

Can you believe it? Its end of the week already, which reminds me I need to go to the Library to return my books and get new ones or i'll be bored during the weekend heh

First 3 contestants for American Idol's Top 12 has been decided. yay Danny & Micheal got in! But kinda dissapointed that Anoop wasn't able to go through. Hopefully he'll be in the wildcard round.

Being bored as I currently am, doing another meme i got from somewhere lol

( boy/girl )
Somehow i feel like going for a run now. hmmm maybe later in the evening or i could cycle coz i'm not sure whether i should be running as of yet lol.  First should go grab some dinner since i havent eaten anything the whole day. Instant noodles here i come (^-^)v

Happy friday the 13th! LOL

Who can forget about tomorrow? With constant reminders via email, FB, radio, TV... tsk.
V-day is damn over-rated. Not that i'm being sour becoz i'm single but seriously, what is so special about a day where every other couple 'celebrates' it at the same time? Very the not romantic methinks. wahahaha

Anyhooo, Its almost mid february now and i am so nowhere near where I thought I'd be at my age. Who would have thought I'd had the darnest luck? Falling ill, surgery, recovery, economic crisis all bundled up in around the same time line and now me being unable to find a job after countless job applicatons. Unfortunately with this darn bout of bad luck i'm in becoming a pessimist. Somehow i always get the feeling that whenever recruiters see my resume they will just pass it because i'm either 1)malay 2)am not bilingual because i don't speak mandarin/dialect or 3)they don't like my face hmmrph as racist as it might sound but heck it happens right here in sg, equality my foot.

kwangkwang okok enough of me being pessimistic it will get me nowhere especially living in sg.

Do you guys watch the latest season of American Idol? Damn that Tatiana girl is freakin annoying. Anyways i already have my favourites but i'd have to watch them perform during the Top 36 rounds first like how David Cook made me sit up and notice when he performed 'Hello'.
Speaking of which one of the contestants, Michael Sarver, I swear kinda looks like Nick Carter's older brother or relative. you think?





I think he, I mean Michael, has a nice singing voice. Who knows he might be the dark horse? Hopefully he does well in the Top 36 and manage to get in to Top 12. Would be interesting to watch. =)

Alritey then, refering to my previous post, as promised, photos!


( ||: requested photos :|| )

Snagged this meme from mklia 
Since I like to take photos why not aye? lol

Ask me to take pictures of any aspects of my life that you're interested in or curious about. It can be anything from my favorite shirt to my cellphone. Leave your requests as a comment to this entry, and I'll snap the pictures and post them up in my next post. (^-^)

Ran a few personal errands today and i decided to walk to Tampines Central from home since the weather was nice and windy plus i wanted to save on transport. To and from the bus interchange costs about $1.50. The horror! I can buy a cup of bubble tea for that amount lolz I enjoyed my walk and i got my dose of exercise but now i have a blister on one of my toes. Reason why i don't like to wear slippers XP I have now learnt my lesson. I shall now only wear slippers if i'm only walking a minimal distance hehe

I'm still currently unemployed. This is sucky. I need a jobbbbbb. Any lobangs? lol
I need to be more pro-active at this job search and try a different strategy.

Friday evening and i'm already borreddd.
Blog hopped and found this. Well its something to do and my new LJ friends can get to know me a lil' better ;)

( .truth.wishes.fibs. )

I just saw this on Facebook. Ok i've heard whisperings about it for quite some time but its now official!
Jason Mraz is having a concert in March!!!
I want to goooo baddlyy since I missed his performance at Singfest last year thanks to me being sick in the hospital, but i have no moolahs so to speak right now le sigh
Unless ofcourse i succeed in getting a job soon.

Sponsors anyone? hmmm realistically no one is that generous kan
how about belated birthday present? ahahahahha
(^-^)v

I am itching to travel BUT i need to get a job first
bluek
my bank balance is almost at the minus range zomg

I hate the waiting period of expecting HR people to call you for an interview after you submit your resume, especially when the job market ain't doing so good.
My last resort is just to get a part time job at a cafe or go back to the legal line. This is so not the time to be choosy aye hmmmmz

I have not slept a wink since last night. 
Tossed and turned, tried all different positions, breathing techniques, listening to my ipod but NOTHING worked
bleah
so i ended up doing some japanese revision, practiced on my japanese writing, listened to Glenn & The Flying Dutchman on Class 95's Morning Express, made french toast for breakfast ANDD i'm still not sleepy.

somebody shoot me but right now i so wish i was at work
but i need a job to that in the first place
heh
Maybe subconsciously i'm worried about something, which is why i'm unable to sleep. haiz now to put a finger on what exactly is bothering me.

ah well i should enjoy what ever free time i have now right?
i keep telling myself its like the calm before the storm lol

hmmm since I don't think I'll be going to sleep anytime soon I should go out and run some errands.

1. Finally get my passport photo done so I can finally renew my almost expiring passport,
2. go to the optometrist and get a new pair of glasses done to replace the ones that i lost eons ago so that I can finally register for BTT and pass the eye test lol,
3. go to the library to return the library books that i've finished reading and borrow new ones and maybe kill some time by doing more japanese revision at the library

mmm i got more to add but that will be going into too much detail lol

ok i shall laze around for a bit more before doing all that heee
somehow now i feel like doing this



What sleep deprivation can do to a person.
wahahahhahahhahahaha

Happy New Year me darlings!
I know i haven't been updating much, haven't had the mood to blog lately. When i need to clear my mind what i do nowadays is write and i don't need the internet connection to dothat! lol.

To make up for it and since its the new year and all, I made a new layout for my LJ! yay! Well base codes are of course courtesy of minty_peach 

So, unlike previous years i haven't done any reflections or resolutions whatsoever for the new year. Maybe just a passing thought here and there. 2008 has been a really trying year. Funnily enough it went more or less accordingly to what was predicted for my chinese horosope. hmmmm.
I had an awesome beginning half of the year but not so much towards the later half of the year with my infection, surgery and all.

Here are my top 10 high and low-lights of the year 2008 in no particular order:

( my 2008 in summary )

New Year's Eve was a blast compared to the previous 2 years where i've actually stayed at home doing nothing. Spent it with my sisters at the Esplanade. I love it when there are Live band performances at the outdoor theater. Four bands performed that night, Quasimodo, You and Whose Army?, Tiramisu and Mathilda & the Motherfunkys.
YAWA? was a yawn, Tiramisu was hilarious & fun but i enjoyed Quasimodo's performance the most. They really have catchy tunes and despite having a foot injury, the lead singer knows how to build rapport with the audience. The only problem i had with the band was that the back up vocals were somewhat out of tune heh
Mathilda & the Motherfunkys performed after the fireworks were over.  As much as I wanted to hear her perform, on her 2nd song some drunk angmohs decided to start their own dancing party in the middle of the audience and well since it became somesort of a green light the surrounding foreign workers who were mainly 'banglas' decided to join in and well all hell broke loose.  So we decided to do a quick escape lol.

( NYE08! )

Anyways i'm not really sure what i am looking forward to the new year, however the top priority on my list right now is to get a job. lol.
I do hope i can get one soon, i'm dying of boredom at home and i have bills to pay bluek. :P
Next thing would be to find what i'm looking for, maybe understand where i'm heading in life, make plans and work towards new goals. Okay its all very vague but i know i'll get to where i need to go and maybe finally be lucky in love lol i wish.

oh and i want to travel! Hopefully if i can save up enough by year's end maybe i'll take a trip to somewhere. I'm not sure where yet but we'll see *wink*

Also 2009 would be bittersweet because of my close friends who will be going away to further their studies abroad.
I am so going to miss them.  Let's meet up before you fly off okay :)

So... its been 5 days since i've turned since 24 and boy do i not feel any different. LOL
I'm starting to realise that turning a year older doesn't really mean much nowadays. Well maybe it does when we were younger and anticipating on getting to the legal age. The legal age to get a driving license, the legal age to sign your own documents etcetc. But once you get pass that age, well lets just say turning another year old doesnt really mean that much. Okay maybe when i get closer to the big 3-0 then there will be a big personal review on whether i've done anything significant in my youth =P

ouh and to commemorate my birhtday this year, I had my hair cut short. ahahaahhahahaha
I know I know what's new. Its not like I never had short hair before.
Well since i anticipated that my Birthday this year will have no significant memory and i'd be at home doing nothing might as well make my own memory. lol.  There goes my attempt to grow out my hair =P
I think the only way I would ever have long hair is if I either have a hair weave or extensions put in.  I so fail at growing out my hair.  On the plus side of things I'm always told i look better with short hair hehe

Anyways, life has been quite monotonous these days. Weekly hospital appointments has become very routine that I no longer feel angry at long waiting times. Don't get me wrong, I still hate the long waiting times but I'm so used to it that I no longer can be bothered to get angry. I usually either read, let my mind wander, watch the TV screen showing silent moving pictures or listen to other patient's conversations or complaints on how long the waiting time is lol.  After killing whatever time I have at the hospital, I'd drop by the kopitiam to buy food to eat at home and then i'll head straight back home.  So basically every week if i'm not at home i'm either at the hospital.  I don't see anything else except for the walls and ceiling of my home and the expressways that the Cab takes to the hospital.  My social life is dead. I think I'm either already forgotton or people are just too scared to ask me out coz they are afraid i'd faint infront of them or something like i have some disease. Ok fine everyone is busy. hmpf. bah hum bug. lol i'm feeling crappy excuse me for the negative thoughts.  Being positive all the time can get tiring sometimes.

On the bright side of things i'm meeting some friends later in the evening. Miss them alotalot. 
Thank you for not leaving me out. I am so looking forward to it!

I miss my friends and I miss working.
Yes i miss working.
I am utterly bored.
I need to get a job but I can't right now since i'm still recovering, although i'm getting stronger each day (no more wheelchair at the hospital!) I have yet to get my full strength back. le sigh. Unless someone gives me a job that i can either do from home or I can work a couple of hours, nothing too strenuous of course, that would be awesome wouldn't it?
Speaking of which ever since my surgery, being warded, weekly hospital visits, warfarin supply, antibiotics medical supplies, cab fares to and from the hospital, my funds are running low. I don't know how long my savings can last me since i have no income. darn it.
I so need to get better quickly.  Bills to pay, lifetime medicine to constantly stock up on. haiz

I've been keeping tabs on the current economic crisis and with people being retrenched and such, I'm wondering that when i get better and well enough to get back to the workforce, can I even find a job then?  That is one other thing that I keep thinking about.  Which i know i really shouldn't be since I need to concentrate on getting better. heh.  I am just trying to be a realist can lol

Well for now i'm making use of my time by... watching random TV shows on discover channel, the asian food channel, okto and the list goes on LOL oh and I've been learning japanese on my own.  Ah yes learning Japanese, I decided to skip applying for japanese classes that starts next month since i am low on funds and try out learning on my own since I already kinda have a small stack of japanese language books already.  I swear learning on your own needs ALOT of self motivation.  Well it also helps that I watch a lot of Japanese shows and have been picking up the language here and there.  Trying to read and write is another whole different thing altogether. ish

omg i think i'm starting to ramble hehe
its almost 2.30am already, i think i should go to bed already
till then darlings
ta-ra!

So i was randomly surfing on YouTube and these videos brought back memories.
Here are some long forgotten songs/bands, remember them?

The Moffatts - I'll Be There For You


Precious - Rewind


Solid Harmony - I'll Be There For You


Steps - It's The Way You Make Me Feel


Code Red - This Is Our Song


911 - The Day We Find Love


The Pop/Boyband era *sigh* when we were all young and foolish lol.
Anyways here's more if you're interested:

N'sync - Tearin' Up My Heart
A1 - Everytime
5ive - Until The Time Is Through
TLC - No Scrubs
Ant & Dec - Falling
BBMak - Back Here
Ultra - Say It Once
Human Nature - Whisper Your Name


On a totally random note, now i know why Koike Teppei looks vaguely familiar when i first saw him. He reminds me of Lee from 911. lol ok end of random note :P

so...
my liver is not functioning as optimally as it should to filter out my very strong antibiotics, which is why i have been feeling sick. That's just great.  The doc almost wanted to send me to the A&E if i had looked worse. Another admission, seriously no thank you.  Anything else too add to the list?  Another appointment tomorrow, blood tests and the docs trying to work out this problem.
I am tired.
I am going back to bed now.