So how is everyone enjoying their long Easter holiday weekend? Well for the most part of mine i'm busy slacking at home watching online videos and doing personal online research, i'll let you know what i'm researching on it a bit. I love research don't you LOL!
ok quick random updates!

1 - Oasis' concert at the Indoor Stadium last Sunday was a blast, let's just say it was a day to remember. It was one hell of an experience, especially when i thought i almost died LOL! Never am i going to stand in the first few rows of a free standing crowd ever again. Rowdy concert goers pushing you left right and center, at one point I thought I was going to fall and be trampled by strangers. Heck the view from the back is still good especially when I'm tall so all is goood (^-^)b




2 - Lately I have had a handful of friends who went or is planning to go to Japan for holiday/work/school trip and every time I get a lil bit jealous because I really wanna go too!! So I have decided for my 25th Birthday in November this year I am going to do my very own budget trip to Tokyo, Japan! Wooot! I think I deserve a trip after everything that i've been through these past few months. Budget is gonna be tight, I found a hostel i'm considering and I like planning and doing research for a trip, Its now or never baby, life is too short to live in regret! lol
Besides the usual places in Tokyo that I want to go to like Shibuya, Harujuku, Akihabara, etc, I'm thinking of going to Aiba's family restaurant in Chiba. I could have my birthday lunch/dinner there, perhaps aye? And I'm looking for a travel buddy if anyone is interested *grinz*
If not a solo trip is okay with me too, bring on the adventure! Another alternative is if there is anyone who is already in Tokyo would want to meet up or show me around that will be awesome too!

Wee~ i'm damn excited for this trip! I'm still doing my reearch and planning out the budget and itinerary and i'm keeping my fingers crossed that everything will work out smoothly. I'll update my progress on this trip as and when there is progress (^-^)v

3 - I think i realised something this week, whenever I'm in need of a stress reliever the Arashi boys never fails to make me laugh, especially Aiba. Was looking back on a meme I did on facebook and there was a question on who makes me laugh and my answer was Aiba. The dude really cracks me up with his baka-ness and is it just me or is he getting better looking. Maybe he has always looked like that but i've never noticed? Ironically he was the first member i noticed when I was watching an older Arashi PV a couple years back and they were simply another J-pop group to me before I really got into them and thereafter all the other members started shining brighter :P

4 - Eversince the public transportation service providers have been fined early last week for lapses in their services, I must say the public buses have kinda improved during peak hours. But i have doubts that they will keep up with it coz sooner or later, the peak hour services will go back to before, never on time and you have to wait for ages for a feeder service and then the bus service providers, like routine, will get fined again and who gets affected? The public, because these public service providers will raise their fares again. I hope they prove me wrong.

5 - If you're in sg, I'm sure you've read/heard about the food poisoning episode with the geylang rojak stall. My condolences to the families who lost their loved ones. This tragedy i must say kinda reminds me of the fragility of life. One moment you are enjoying life, planning for the future, the next minute your life can just be cut short because of something you ate. A person can never predict how long or how short their life is going to be so Carpe Diem people! :)

6 - Eversince the opening of Tampines 1 at Tampines Central, mannn Tampines is even more crowded!!!! Me don't like. Its very hard navigating through eastlink mall that connects the interchange to the MRT station, i already hated it when they started having carts in the area bluek~ Well considering the Mall has just opened maybe the crowds is to be expected. Hopefully the hype of the new mall will die down eventually. Did i mention how much i hate crowds LOL

7 - Got around to watching Arashi's AAA 2008 concert and i love it! If only they had a concert here in Singapore. My favourite performance has got to be Subarashiki Sekai and Sirius.
Before i sign off i'm sharing the videos here, enjoy!

( Videos here! )

Happy friday the 13th! LOL

Who can forget about tomorrow? With constant reminders via email, FB, radio, TV... tsk.
V-day is damn over-rated. Not that i'm being sour becoz i'm single but seriously, what is so special about a day where every other couple 'celebrates' it at the same time? Very the not romantic methinks. wahahaha

Anyhooo, Its almost mid february now and i am so nowhere near where I thought I'd be at my age. Who would have thought I'd had the darnest luck? Falling ill, surgery, recovery, economic crisis all bundled up in around the same time line and now me being unable to find a job after countless job applicatons. Unfortunately with this darn bout of bad luck i'm in becoming a pessimist. Somehow i always get the feeling that whenever recruiters see my resume they will just pass it because i'm either 1)malay 2)am not bilingual because i don't speak mandarin/dialect or 3)they don't like my face hmmrph as racist as it might sound but heck it happens right here in sg, equality my foot.

kwangkwang okok enough of me being pessimistic it will get me nowhere especially living in sg.

Do you guys watch the latest season of American Idol? Damn that Tatiana girl is freakin annoying. Anyways i already have my favourites but i'd have to watch them perform during the Top 36 rounds first like how David Cook made me sit up and notice when he performed 'Hello'.
Speaking of which one of the contestants, Michael Sarver, I swear kinda looks like Nick Carter's older brother or relative. you think?





I think he, I mean Michael, has a nice singing voice. Who knows he might be the dark horse? Hopefully he does well in the Top 36 and manage to get in to Top 12. Would be interesting to watch. =)

Alritey then, refering to my previous post, as promised, photos!


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So... its been 5 days since i've turned since 24 and boy do i not feel any different. LOL
I'm starting to realise that turning a year older doesn't really mean much nowadays. Well maybe it does when we were younger and anticipating on getting to the legal age. The legal age to get a driving license, the legal age to sign your own documents etcetc. But once you get pass that age, well lets just say turning another year old doesnt really mean that much. Okay maybe when i get closer to the big 3-0 then there will be a big personal review on whether i've done anything significant in my youth =P

ouh and to commemorate my birhtday this year, I had my hair cut short. ahahaahhahahaha
I know I know what's new. Its not like I never had short hair before.
Well since i anticipated that my Birthday this year will have no significant memory and i'd be at home doing nothing might as well make my own memory. lol.  There goes my attempt to grow out my hair =P
I think the only way I would ever have long hair is if I either have a hair weave or extensions put in.  I so fail at growing out my hair.  On the plus side of things I'm always told i look better with short hair hehe

Anyways, life has been quite monotonous these days. Weekly hospital appointments has become very routine that I no longer feel angry at long waiting times. Don't get me wrong, I still hate the long waiting times but I'm so used to it that I no longer can be bothered to get angry. I usually either read, let my mind wander, watch the TV screen showing silent moving pictures or listen to other patient's conversations or complaints on how long the waiting time is lol.  After killing whatever time I have at the hospital, I'd drop by the kopitiam to buy food to eat at home and then i'll head straight back home.  So basically every week if i'm not at home i'm either at the hospital.  I don't see anything else except for the walls and ceiling of my home and the expressways that the Cab takes to the hospital.  My social life is dead. I think I'm either already forgotton or people are just too scared to ask me out coz they are afraid i'd faint infront of them or something like i have some disease. Ok fine everyone is busy. hmpf. bah hum bug. lol i'm feeling crappy excuse me for the negative thoughts.  Being positive all the time can get tiring sometimes.

On the bright side of things i'm meeting some friends later in the evening. Miss them alotalot. 
Thank you for not leaving me out. I am so looking forward to it!

I miss my friends and I miss working.
Yes i miss working.
I am utterly bored.
I need to get a job but I can't right now since i'm still recovering, although i'm getting stronger each day (no more wheelchair at the hospital!) I have yet to get my full strength back. le sigh. Unless someone gives me a job that i can either do from home or I can work a couple of hours, nothing too strenuous of course, that would be awesome wouldn't it?
Speaking of which ever since my surgery, being warded, weekly hospital visits, warfarin supply, antibiotics medical supplies, cab fares to and from the hospital, my funds are running low. I don't know how long my savings can last me since i have no income. darn it.
I so need to get better quickly.  Bills to pay, lifetime medicine to constantly stock up on. haiz

I've been keeping tabs on the current economic crisis and with people being retrenched and such, I'm wondering that when i get better and well enough to get back to the workforce, can I even find a job then?  That is one other thing that I keep thinking about.  Which i know i really shouldn't be since I need to concentrate on getting better. heh.  I am just trying to be a realist can lol

Well for now i'm making use of my time by... watching random TV shows on discover channel, the asian food channel, okto and the list goes on LOL oh and I've been learning japanese on my own.  Ah yes learning Japanese, I decided to skip applying for japanese classes that starts next month since i am low on funds and try out learning on my own since I already kinda have a small stack of japanese language books already.  I swear learning on your own needs ALOT of self motivation.  Well it also helps that I watch a lot of Japanese shows and have been picking up the language here and there.  Trying to read and write is another whole different thing altogether. ish

omg i think i'm starting to ramble hehe
its almost 2.30am already, i think i should go to bed already
till then darlings
ta-ra!

So it was a shocker
Michael Johns being eliminated from American Idol
wtf, he's one of the stronger singers in the competition
but oh well somebody has to go right?

So my weekend has started off on a bad note. Not because of the above but because of other things. I think its time I learn to stop having expectations. I find joy in the littlest things but nowadays even these little things are starting to desert me. It makes me sad but what can I do but just smile because life still goes on no matter how dissapointed i feel. The only sure thing I know that will be there at the end of the day is my home and my family.

Its starting to be a pain when my fridays constantly end up being a bad start to my weekend. Thank god for my japanese videos and tubs of ice cream. The only things that keeps me sane nowadays no matter how much my friends ridicule me about it. Whatever makes me happy right. You have your own happy stuff and i have mine.

Somebody recently commented why in the world i had my hair cut short. To the person its even more reason why i won't be attached anytime soon. *cue for me to roll my eyes*
I shall save you from what was being said next. But seriously to hell with whatever that person said. I'm happy with having short hair, it does not make me less a girl than i already am. I'm perfectly happy with my life now, with being single, with not having to worry for another extra human being in my life and I'm in no rush nor have the need to find a partner or whateverchumaycallit at the current moment just because you simply can't live without clinging to somebody else like a morning glory.

In case you're wondering what my hair looks like now..
( haircut here! )

With that said, I want to go watch Survivor on TV now. good night everyone. Have a good weekend.
I leave you now with my faviourite performance from Michael Johns.

this cannot be
I'm craving for the Laksa from the noodle stall at Food Culture (Century Square)
nooooooo its already 10.43pm!!!

It doesnt help that i'm watching Rouge on Channel 5 and they just gave out to the audience Jane's Cake Station's Chocolate Cakee!!!!!  I want chocolate cake too!

I'm itching to go out for supper but what's stopping me is:

1 - I don't drive and neither do I have a car in the first place
2 - I have no one to go supper with bcos i obviously do not have a lot of friends bah humbug
3 - I am broke because i have not received my pay coz boss happily went to mardi gras and forgot to sign our cheques
4 - Most of my friends are not easterners and I live too 'far' away from them
5 - I am not craving for MacDonalds so therefore calling the only 24hrs delivery service is out of the question, and refer again to point 3.

aiyah its trusty ol' magiee meee then

I need to look for more supper going friends. =P

I'll be first to admit that i'm not close to my cousins. As much as i wish to be, the lack of interaction somehow makes it awkward when we have a gathering twice/thrice a year, and that isn't a guarantee that everyone will be present. My sister is better at cousin relations than I am coz perhaps they have more things in common than i ever will. But when i say cousins, i am only refering to my maternal side coz apparently as i've discovered recently, on my parental side, we cease to exist in their minds. Even our cousins on the parental side don't acknowledge we exist. Maybe it due to the fact my father has passed away a decade ago and his siblings see no use of continuing their relations with us because we are a burden due to the size of our family. Sure we see them like once every few years but the forced smiles and awkwardness makes me hate the pretenses even more. Then again i've already had this feeling they never really liked us to begin with, even when dad was alive because we like to do things our way and don't really care what people think of us. What is so wrong about being oneself?


Then there are the family gatherings over the school holidays or the older cousin's engagement that we were not invited to. Its funny when you only discover about such things on their blogs. Don't even begin to tell me to make the first move coz i have done so before only to be ignored. Their loss i suppose, cause i think i'm at a point where i don't give a damn.
Don't tell me to let you know about anything that goes on in my family when clearly you have no interest in it whatsoever. When we needed help where were you?

I suppose dad would be disappointed at how things has gotten to be. I mean come on, take for example a few years back when a certain someone had the cheek to borrow money from us, a single parent family, to pay your own bills? hello??? You have not even paid back the money my dad lent to you when he was still alive. Blood relations are so overrated. One can only count on his own family. I love my family and its ok that we only have each other to rely on. We have survived thus far and we will continue to do so on our own merit.

on to not so serious blogging.



I was never a fan of Kanjani8. The first time i saw a clip of their performance on cruchy.roll. i was surprised that such a band existed, with their wacky attire and all. Then somehow towards the first half of the performance i notice someone familiar. I was asking myself, 'eh is that ryo??' 'he is in 2 bands??' 'eeehhh? o-O" ' and three-quarter through the performance i closed the window coz i thought the live performance sounded really out of tune. So from then on that's how i thought Kanjani8 songs and performance were like. That was the end to the start of my discovery of Kanjani8. Well that's what i thought at first.

I'm a big fan of NEWS and Arashi, and with the huge JE community on LJ dedicated to them as well as subbed videos, it was a matter of time before some videos had some Kanjani8 members in them, for example when NEWS was in 'HEY!HEY!HEY! Music Champ' in 2005 methinks and Hina and Yuu were one of their special guests. Then there were also videos specifically on Ryo from shows that Kanjani8 hosted. So i got curious with their ongoing variety show 'Jani-Ben'. I think through their variety shows and various interviews I got to know their personalities better and they really are unique in their own way. Started to check out their songs after hearing Yamapi and Ryo doing their own rendition of Kanfu Fighting on their NEWS tours which was on NEWS' Never Ending Wonderful Story DVD and i have to say their songs are not as bad as i thought it would be.

I may not be Kanjani8's biggest fan nor one who will go nuts over them but i am beginning to like their songs more, especially their new single ' wahaha'. I love songs with uplifting lyrics and their singles are those that will make you smile. Then again maybe i'm being bias. But who cares.



lyrics and translation

So this video has been going around the web.
Now my mandarin understanding may not be that good, but the gist of the video is that these Taiwanese celebrities are criticizing how the Singaporean way of speaking English is weird. (My mandarin speaking friends please correct me if i'm wrong)
Now how in the world could 'thanks' be pronounced as 'dance'? I seriously think that the guy should get his ears checked. How many Singaporeans have they actually talked to? Don't tell me its on the basis of one person they've encountered?

I know majority of Singaporeans have a unique slang that you can recognize even if you're in a foreign country. But the slang they were trying to imitate was not even recognizable. Do they expect everyone who speaks English to have a fake British/American slang?

Do they really think that their English is a whole lot better? Now seriously, majority of Taiwanese people don't even speak proper English, and here these people are making fun of the way we speak English and trying to correct us when English has been our lingua franca.

Like it or hate it, the Singaporean accent of speaking English is here to stay and I'm perfectly fine with the way Singaporeans speak English because it is sincere and not fake. But these 'language critics' should take a look at their own country first before criticizing others.

Dear Lion dance troopers or whoeveryouguysare,

RE: BUZZ OFF

Please stop disturbing my sleep!!!!! I've been woken up by your incessant drumming for the past two days and it is giving me a headache already! Stop it cannn? This is the second time you are banging your drums in a day.  And its the bloody weekend! People are trying to rest. Your drumming has been so annoying that it now sounds like you are banging pots and pans instead of the actual big drums.  Seriously what are you trying to do?  Go disturb some other neighbourhood who is willing to listen to your irritating drumming.

I have patience but there is a limit to my tolerance.  I get that the drumming has something to do with CNY, so i tolerated.  But is there a need to do it everyday?  Somebody please educate me on this, cause for the past 20 years of living in my family home, this has never happened before. At times i feel like throwing eggs out of the window because thats where i think you are hiding just to irritate the hell out of me.  bleargh. 

This is just as bad as those void deck malay weddings during the weekend where they blast loud karaoke music and have guests/relatives singing like there's no tomorrow.  Now if somebody could just throw a bucket of water on those people maybe the world would be a better place.   I hate to digress, but seriously, don't they watch American/Singapore Idol? If you can't sing don't.  And what makes them think that the whole block wants to hear them sing? ish.  If you diedie want to sing please go to a KTV where everyone is tone deaf and would appreciate your singing more than I do.

Before i digress any further, thank you for taking the time to read this. 
I hope I will not wake up tomorrow to your drumming any longer.

xoxo
an irritated resident

A slow start to a Monday morning, bored in the office and my stomach is rumbling with hunger.
darn that CNY music has just started. ish.
I swear this totally feels like the calm before a storm.  Since right now projects are all still under talks, and as a PA obviously i'm not involved in those meetings, since i'm not the least bit 'qualified' to join in the discussions (apparently some man.age.gers have this thing about PAs having their own opinions/suggestion/brains.bleah.), so here I sit in my corner waiting for the boss to give me something to do as he types non stop on his laptop doing god knows which project.  I'm starting to hate having nothing to do.  I want to go back to school.  My sister suggests that I only do so when she comes back from Swiss next year.  Can i wait that long? I wonder.

I forsee the storm coming most probably when the CNY period is over.  Am.Am.Pee.Dee.Eh, Are.Aye.Tee.See, My.Guh.ulf.Cuh.lubb, Pee.Ass.Dae... did i leave anything out? That's all i know that's currently in the works right now.

I miss being in a team.
I was browsing thru some of the law juniors blogs and happen to come across their latest post on what was it? A.rt.s Ni.gh.t? sigh.
I am jealous.  I wish i was back in school, back in law. inc. doing stuff i love and not sitting behind a desk waiting. Waiting for my turn to continue my studies so that i can pursue my own dreams.

I get jealous when is see a team working in perfect harmony.  I get jealous when i see a group of friends who are like family.  And funny thing is these groups are either music groups or from some drama.  I get jealous of fictional characters. go figure. wtf a.zi.

Reason why i love events management, is the fact of being able to work with a team of dedicated people.  No matter how hard/tough organising is to please the client/target audience, no matter how much headache  you can get from last minute demands/logistical arrangements/red tapes, no matter how frustrating it is when there are individuals who only think of themselves and not for the team, i love every bit of the experience.  Because for every one event that is held, you learn so many things about yourself and about other things that textbooks can never teach.

You know what i want to experience the most?  Organising concerts/performances.  Working close to another thing i love which is music, well theater production included.  Consider that one of my dreams. 
Can you imagine, to be able to work at the esplanade or some international music/entertainment company?? fuuyohhh.  No matter how much hard work needs to be dedicated to each production, i am so willing to even start from the bottom. 

Now how did my talk about how boring my monday is suddenly became about me talking about my dreams? lol.

oh yes,
i was browsing through friendster and looking at all the updated profiles of my friends with their engagement / wedding / baby photos. lol.
As i was browsing through them i realise that i am so not ready to be a that stage of where their lives are right now no matter how younger/older they are or even the same age as me.  At my age, funnily enough i gotta admit i don't think i ready yet to be in a relationship.  Relationships need work and i don' t think i currently have the capacity to give my 100% in a relationship if not i wont be fair the other person right?  So maybe because i am not ready is the sole reason why i am still single at my age and i don't care what other people/relativesiseeonceinabluemoon says.  lol.

otay i shall end my post here for now.
LUNCH TIME! yay!
i think i shall go to car.re.four. at PS to get those take away sushi.
ciao!

haiz
having my boss as the boss I seriously need to come up with a plan so i don't do double unnecessary work.
Freaking hell.
I hate it when things are overlooked, instructions/replies are not being read/given properly and for godsake I am NOT wonder woman and neither do i have magical powers. baka.

One thing good about being the only full time employee in the firm and at times being the only one in the office?

I can scream as loud as I want when the boss does one of his irritating habits when he is overseas.
bleargh.

I hate it when the first thing i wake up is to read a message saying how I've messed up at work.  And the part you're told you messed up is when people point fingers at you on something that didn't happen in the first place or happened in a totally different way that makes you look incapable of something simple.  Its quite disheartening to be accused of trying to do something you thought was the right thing to do at the moment, but stuff like this is normal in the corporate world aye?  But I'm kinda disappointed with myself nonetheless, and I wonder what my boss is thinking.  Will something like this bring down his opinion of me.  I know he tried to defend me and all but still, somewhat i feel that I've let him down.
Then again, I shouldn't let this incident bring me down and try harder and do better the next time.
Life is about making mistakes and learning from them.

When stuff like this happens, i find that watching my japanese drama/anime gives me motivation to do better. Sometimes even looking at a smiling picture of a certain someone gives me strength as well.
I know it might sound silly to some, especially to my close friends, who i can just imagine giving me that usual look on their faces (you know who you are) but so what? As long as it gives me the strength to move forward, i have no complains =)

Jotting stuff like these down also kinda helps alot.  I realise that if i tend to keep most of them bottled in I tend to get a pretty bad migraine =P Even if my entries do sound 'emo' (I know i noticed that too) or as if i'm talking to myself (which for the most part I am) why should anyone else be bothered about what i blog about since it is my blog right? ;)

Ah well,
I now have a throbbing headache that have yet to go away which I hope it does by the time tomorrow comes.  I want to be at my best for tomorrow's shoot.  And I so hope that those I'm meeting in the morning are not LATE, cause most of them are famous for that particular trait. tsktsk.

p/s
Dee - I know you're going through quite a lot now, on the bright side you've got two more weeks and then you're free from that godawful place.  Ganbatte neh!
Let's go out for dinner soon =) *hugs*

yosh!
ja ne  =)